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Living Life

September 25, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #Chalene Johnson, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #coach, #coaching, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #health and fitness coach, #lasertherapy, #life by design, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #PIYO, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #teambeachbody, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

I spent last night at my good friend’s house. Jo and I have been friends since grade school. We rarely get together, but we both wish we’d see each other more often. So, recently, we’ve been doing fairly well at making a point of getting together. We decided we should have a slumber party – like we’re 16 again! We actually had made plans to have a slumber party with another one of our friends, but sadly she couldn’t make it (I sure miss her). It’s too bad that she didn’t join us. Anyway, being sick has turned me into a hermit. However, I know that it’s good for me to get out and do things. Sometimes it’s hard, because it’s so much easier to just sit at home and do nothing. It takes quite a bit of effort for me to get up and at ’em, but I know that doing nothing, all of the time, is just not good for me. I don’t want to let myself slowly slip away again…because depression sucks!!) I have to make a conscious effort to get going and doing things. So it seemed like an excellent idea to hang out with Jo. Her husband and kids are in Toronto right now, so we had her place to ourselves. We had supper together, she made really great rice and lettuce wraps mmm! They were definitely tasty. I wonder if my family, (well my kids are who I wonder about – my hubby will eat anything!! He’s very easy to cook for.) would eat them? After supper we just visited and then decided to watch a movie. When we were young Jo and I loved the movie Delirious, which is Eddie Murphy, back when he was young, doing stand-up comedy. It was so funny!! We just had too much fun watching it together!! It brought back so many amazing memories from when we were young. We watched it religiously back then. Last night watching it together was just perfect! I haven’t laughed that much in a very very long long time! It was laugh out loud funny! We were both in tears😭! It was great. I laughed and smiled so much my face hurt. Seriously, I’m not exaggerating at all! I had so much fun!! We decided to watch it on a whim and I’m glad we did. I am so glad that I forced myself to go to her house. I was hesitating a bit in the afternoon, not because I didn’t want to go see her, but because I was lazing around all afternoon and it meant I had to get my arse up and moving!! I’m tired tonight, but I’m so glad I went! No regrets! I have to live my life. I have to take hold of the reins and start steering it where I want to go. Thanx for such a fun night Jo! I haven’t laughed that much in ages!!

To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) to sign a petition to have the World Health Organization (WHO) add Trigeminal Neuralgia (TN) to their “Health topic list.”

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Just Live

September 24, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #Chalene Johnson, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #coach, #coaching, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #health and fitness coach, #lasertherapy, #life by design, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #PIYO, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #teambeachbody, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Drifting slowly through the rain,

I fall and slip right down the drain!

Slugging knee deep in other people’s shit!

I wonder, perhaps, if this is it?

Wading deeper as I go,

I feel the darkness start to grow.

Shivering suddenly, it’s getting colder,

I nervously glance over my left shoulder.

I see them lined up, in a row.

My memories presenting quite the show!

The negative ones, the low-times and all the bad!

“They’re the ones you remember,” “it’s really quite sad.”

God had come down, for a little chat!!??

He said,”You are good, my child!” Like that was that!

“I am losing my mind!!”I said to myself.

“You’re beautiful you know,” said a little fairy-elf!

“Thanks!?!” I said in a bewildered tone.

“I’m seeing things!” My mind was blown!

I said, “God and Fairies are down in the drain?”

“Can someone please come down and explain!?”

“You are good,” said God. “It’s all that matters!”

“Thinking in the negative, must have you in tatters!!”

“Positivity is the way to go,” God said.

“YOU ARE GOOD” “Get it in your head!!”

“Now get out of that shit!”

“It’ll drag you down with it!!”

“Believe in abundance, believe in love.”

“And the law of attraction?” ” Make it fit like a glove!”

“Live like this. Live loud. Live free”

“This is how life’s supposed to be!”

“Forget the past, forget what they think!”

“Quit walking around in other people’s stink!”

“Life’s happening RIGHT NOW!” “When will you start to live?”

“It’s there for the taking.” “I love to give!”

“So just remember, that you are good.”

“And live your life the way you should!”

Then suddenly I was back up on the street.

Shivering from the cold, no shit on my feet!

I looked around, there was no one to be found.

No God. No fairy. No drain underground!

But I swear that I heard, as I was walking away

“You are good!” Just as clear as day…

JKC
To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) to sign a petition to have the World Health Organization (WHO) add Trigeminal Neuralgia (TN) to their “Health topic list.”

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Waiting For Love

September 21, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #Chalene Johnson, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #coach, #coaching, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #health and fitness coach, #lasertherapy, #life by design, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #PIYO, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #teambeachbody, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Waiting, the time passes slowly by,

Wishing it wasn’t always like this!

Sighing, she felt so deflated and confused,

Wondering why he’s so hit or miss?

Rushing, he always kept her waiting,

Hoping for once he would get it right.

Cringing, because he messed up again!

Knowing she’d give him that look tonight.

Frowning, when he walked through the door,

Seeing, the pleading look in his eyes.

Yelling, she couldn’t hold back anymore!

Wondering if they should be saying their goodbyes?

Apologizing, for the hundredth time!

Seeing, his words weren’t changing her mind.

Pleading, for a chance to set things right.

Fearing, she was ready to leave him behind!

Leaving, getting up she grabbed her coat.

Despairing, he grabbed her and held her tight!

Crying, she stared deep into his eyes.

Embracing, why did something so bad feel so right?

JKC

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Waiting

I’m sitting in my van waiting for my daughter to finish dance. I killed time wandering through Walmart forever. I was pretty surprised how quickly the time went by. It’s probably not the best idea or place to be, because I end up buying things that I don’t really need. I actually did better than I expected. I did have some stupid things in my cart that I ended up putting back, but I only spent about $70 and the majority was on groceries. So, not too bad right? I didn’t feel like I even spent that much. Little things sure add up quickly. I was originally keeping track on my phone’s calculator, but I accidentally deleted it when it rang and I picked it up. I bought a new adult colouring book, which I didn’t really need, but that’s probably the only thing I could have done without. I have a LOT of them. I just really love the pictures in them. Some I use for ideas of things for myself to draw, but generally I enjoy colouring. I often do so while watching tv or sitting by my little man while he’s playing a game on the tv. He also sometimes colours with me, but only in certain books. Some of them are just too detailed and complicated for him and some I want to save for myself – lol.

I feel like I’m getting a cold. I have the plugged up sinuses and headache going on. Also, my face is hurting on both sides! It was yesterday too. I just hate it when my left side gets involved. It’s like I’m used to the right-hand side of my face hurting. I’m used to automatically protecting it from being bumped or touched or even being blown on by air conditioning, but the left side makes me feel more vulnerable for some weird reason. It just makes me angry. It feels like a sick joke. TN is rare enough on its own, but dual-sided TN is super rare. Or so they say. I’ve seen a few people on chat groups says they have it on both sides, but most don’t. Okay. Enough whining and feeling sorry for myself. It’s just the way it is and I have to live with that.

Oh! She’s finished. I can see her coming, so I’m going to stop writing for now. I may or may not write more. Depends on time. So, goodnight for now!

The Job Hunt Begins

September 19, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #Chalene Johnson, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #coach, #coaching, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #health and fitness coach, #lasertherapy, #life by design, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #PIYO, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #teambeachbody, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

This morning, after the younger two kiddos were dropped off at school, I was fiddling around on Workopolis and found a job that my daughter should apply for. The deadline was at 11:59PM this afternoon. So I woke her up and told her she had to climb out of bed and apply for this job (it’s for Westjet, being a “Guest Ambassador”. The person who helps you with your tags, assists with self check-in, helps people who are in wheelchairs or those who need assistance also, you clean the planes between flights. And, other various duties as required.) I can totally see her excelling at this job. She’s very good with people, personable and confident, not too shy. It would be a good, stable job!! It only took us 2.5 hours to figure out their on-line application forms. They were supposed to “auto-fill” the information from her uploaded resume, but came up with really wonky things. For instance, in the address section it said she’s from Belgium!! We literally finished the whole thing with seconds to spare. We were still filling things out when we received a four minute warning that the job posting was going to expire. Talk about cutting it close. We may have some poor or crappy answers, because we blew through the last few questions in about 45 seconds. Which, if you know me, is crazy fast!! So, I guess we just wait and see if they contact her. She also applied to work in her father’s field; she applied to be a Pre-Board Screening Officer at the Edmonton Airport. It’s where my hubby started and worked his way up from in 11 or 12 years. He’s technically not working for the EIA anymore, since he’s the Lead Operations Manager for a bunch of the small airports in Alberta, Saskatchewan, Yellowknife and Manitoba, among others. We had cursed and cussed at the stupid form for the Westjet application, well he funny thing is, when she started the screening officer application, it was the exact same form – lol!! We all had a good laugh over that! After we had cheered that we finally finished the first application, we had to do the same thing all over again! The second time around was much faster. Our daughter graduated from high school with French-immersion (that looks weird…did I spell it correctly?!) The airport prioritizes those who are bilingual and French-Immersion qualifies her as bilingual. My hubby said that they’ll put her at the top of the stack of resumes for that alone. So that’s a good thing. The not so good thing is hat it takes a few months of training and tests, as well as a security clearance, before she can actually work. That’s assuming she even gets the job. I guess we wait and see how it goes. The most frustrating part of her getting a job is that she doesn’t have her license yet and our small town doesn’t exactly have a bus system or anything. We’ll just have to drive her, I guess, until she gets her license.

Well, didn’t I ramble on with all that. I have to get to bed. It’s almost 12:00AM and I’m so very sleepyZzzzt…goodnight ‼️😴

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

The Struggles Of Jenn

September 18, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #Chalene Johnson, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #coach, #coaching, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #health and fitness coach, #lasertherapy, #life by design, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #PIYO, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #teambeachbody, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

I’ve been feeling pretty useless recently. Well, I don’t know if useless is the correct word. Probably not. I’ve just been feeling directionless. I’ve been feeling bla. I have no energy. I haven’t been able to do any of my good writing. I feel like I’m just, I don’t know, like I have no motivation, no get up and go. Like I lost my mojo. I get worried when I have the blas. Anyone with a history of depression probably knows what I’m saying. It remains a weight there, in the back of your mind. I don’t like that feeling a d never want to go back there. Those low periods in my life sucked, to put it mildly. I believe that only those who’ve been there truly understand. Depression isn’t the blues, or feeling sad or having a bad day, or even week. It most definitely is not a choice!!! I’m just going to say that one more time, people don’t choose to be depressed. It’s not something you can just snap out of or cheer up! Please don’t ever ask a truly depressed person to do either of those things. You feel stuck, you feel lost, you feel hopeless, you could easily lie in bed for days without doing anything at all. It is a deep, dark, and dismal place to be in. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. People who think that you just need to go for a run clearly don’t get it. Depressed people are having a good day if they make it from the bed to the couch! I don’t want to go back there. I’m probably fine, just in a bit of a rut or something. It just keeps its weight in the back of my mind. Reminding me of how awful it felt. Many of my early posts were from when I was depressed and you can just feel it in the tone of my writing. Or I sure can. My more recent posts compared to some of my older ones are like night and day. But, I’ve just been doing nothing, accomplishing nothing, finishing nothing, and it makes me feel shitty and down. But not depressed. I’ll fight that with all I’ve got! I never want to be in that hopeless place again, not ever! I just need to get my butt in gear and get moving and doing. Being idle sucks. It doesn’t make you feel good about yourself and feels empty, without direction or purpose! I need to do more with my time. Research publishing, write more, paint or draw, something! I don’t do well when I’m not doing enough. I understand that when I’m having a shitty pain day I don’t need to be super-mom or anything. I’m just talking about day to day on my good days I need to be doing something. Anything really! Anything other than sit around getting nothing done. It leaves me feeling crappy about myself and isn’t all that great for the self-esteem. When I’m busy and have lots to do, I feel better about myself. More worthy or something. It’s what I’ve been trying to say to my oldest. If she keeps doing nothing, she’s going to keep getting headaches, feeling bla, being negative and crabby. She’s in a better mood on the days when she’s up and has plans or something to do. She dotsee the correlation between her moods and desire to do absolutely nothing. She doesn’t see how feeling like you accomplish nothing is wearing on her, but I sure do. She needs a job! Then, with her busy, I can do some things for myself, like write or paint or organize our house. I let her convince me to watch tv, which ends up sucking the hours away, then I end up feeling unaccomplished and crappy!! I can’t totally blame her. I choose to sit and do nothing with her. She doesn’t have to force me. I just would probably get more done if she was at work, because she wouldn’t be asking me to watch one of our shows. Sigh…she needs a job, and I need to start doing more around the house. Being sick, really sick, put a lot onto my hubby’s plate. However, now I have more good days, I can get back into doing some of the things around the house that I used to do. That would take some of the pressure off of him. It would alleviate some of the guilt I feel about all he’s done in my place over the past few years. I need to find my drive. I don’t want to be depressed again and I need to start living my life again. I’m just not quite sure how…

Live Your Dreams!!

September 17, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #Chalene Johnson, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #coach, #coaching, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #health and fitness coach, #lasertherapy, #life by design, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #PIYO, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #teambeachbody, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Do you follow your dreams or just dream?

Without action dreams are just thoughts!

Have you considered how it may seem,

To be only thinking lots and lots?

Have you ever even considered,

What you’d need to do?

To turn your thoughts, ideas and brainwaves,

All of your dreams,

Towards steps that you can take,

Things that you can actually do!

To make your dreams a reality when you’re awake!

What’s the first thing you could do?

Writing things down can really help you!

It can make intangible thoughts, dreams and ideas,

Into actual, achievable, realistic goals!

Things that you can do!

Breaking big things down into smaller steps,

Can turn the overwhelming into achievable ideas!

It’s also helpful to write down your dreams!

If something pops into your head,

Have a journal handy and write whatever it is down!!

I’ve had so many book ideas,

That pop into my head at night.

I used to believe I’d just remember the next day.

But, I usually forgot!

Now, I write it down in the “notes” section on my phone.

Do whatever works for you!

A journal, smart phone notes, or even just a pad of paper.

The point is to see what you’ve written.

What are realistic and actually possible.

Sometimes we have to start with the small dreams

And work our way up to the bigger ones.

I dreamt about writing each and every day!

Here I am, after a year and 9 months.

Still writing every day!

My next dream is to get published.

I started small, with just a poem.

I’m going to continue doing the small things,

But I’m heading towards a book.

I’m currently on the research task.

To learn all I can about getting published.

Take your dreams.

Your thoughts and ideas.

Figure out your first step.

And do it!!

Don’t you want to look back, years later,

And feel proud of the life that you’ve lived?

No regrets?!

Live your dreams!

Live the life that you were born to live!

It’s probably not going to be easy.

But, you can do it!!

Just Do It!

JKC

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

The Courage To Be

On a dark rainy day

Thick and gloomy

I felt alone

Surrounded by people

Like the lone rainbow

That appears and disappears

Depending upon the sunlight

Do they truly know me

My thoughts, my dreams

We are alike

That rainbow and I

Surrounded by many

Yet, isolated in a crowd

Why do I hide within myself

How do I speak my truth

When will I find

The courage to Be

JKC

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Live

September 15, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #Chalene Johnson, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #coach, #coaching, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #health and fitness coach, #lasertherapy, #life by design, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #PIYO, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #teambeachbody, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Words…

Sometimes they flow

Sometimes they stop

Sometimes they’re magic

Sometimes They’re not

Days…

Some are fun

Some are not

Some bring hope

Some bring pain

Time…

Sometimes it flys

Sometimes it crawls

Sometimes you wish it would slow

Sometimes you wish it would pass

People…

Sometimes they’re kind

Sometimes they’re cruel

Sometimes you’ll find one to love

Sometimes you’ll wish for one to love

Life…

Some will find purpose

Some will not

Some will spend theirs dreaming

Some will spend theirs living their dreams
Choose your words carefully

Spend your days joyfully

Use your time wisely

Be with people whom you love

Live your life with meaning, fulfilling your dreams

JKC

Just Silly

September 14, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #Chalene Johnson, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #coach, #coaching, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #health and fitness coach, #lasertherapy, #life by design, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #PIYO, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #teambeachbody, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Feeling tired and sleepy today,

Not sure why I’m feeling this way.

Always feel tired, running on low,

Feel like I’m moving in slow slow-mo!

Wish I had energy, a life full of fun!

Wish I was pain free, I’d feel like I won!

Life without pain, with energy and spunk,

It’s been so long, I’d fell like I was punked!

It’s not always bad, it’s been worse, I know,

I just pray that one day it will permanently go!

Then I’d be free, oh what would I do?

Maybe stop whining about it to you!!

Hee Hee

Just a short one tonight. I’m beat and my face is bad today! Night all💤

The Spirit Scribe

I challenge myself to write 365 posts in 2016to heal Body, Mind & Spirit. Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Tag Archives: #Chalene Johnson

Living Life

Just Live

Waiting For Love

Waiting

The Job Hunt Begins

The Struggles Of Jenn

Live Your Dreams!!

The Courage To Be

Live

Just Silly