From the vault again. Taken from the same writings as yesterday’s post, from an art-journaling course I took a while back. I’m not feeling good and we had a birthday party for my daughter with about 15 (no wonder I feel shitty!) dance friends. She wasn’t sure about mixing her dance friends with her school friends. She mentioned that she was nervous about whether or not they’d get along. Apparently her school friends don’t like it when she talks about her dance friends. They even came up with a really mean nick-name for one of the girls, just from an Instagram photo. I was shocked when my daughter told me. However, I guess that during the last few months of school she was often upset, because her friends were being mean to her or ganging up on her or not helping her with things, like if she missed school and then asked them for help, they wouldn’t help her. She worried constantly about what to or not to say, because she didn’t want them to be mad at her. I was and still am really surprised, as these are all nice girls that she’s been friends with for years!! Anyway, who knows where that all came from. Total tangent!! How did I even start talking about this?? Oh right! The dance friends. The truth of the matter was that she was worried about the two friend groups getting along! Anyway. It will all work out. She’ll have a sleepover or something with her school friends and everyone will be happy!! Here’s my writing from the vault. Even though I wanted to, I added no changes. When I’m using past writing I try not to correct anything, to keep it in its original version. 

Awaken Awareness

Frenzy, Frenzy, stop this frenzy!  What am I rushing for?

Worry, worry, always worry!  Does it even help me get more?

Moving, running, pushing, shoving!  Have to get things done. 

Helter-skelter. Chaos-panic! Is living this way fun?

Time to stop, to pause, to rest. To open up my eyes. 

Seeing, viewing, breathing deeply. Letting awareness arise. 

Sitting calmly, praying reverently. Taking in my life. 

Smiling, laughing, living joyfully.  There is no need for strife. 

Changing viewpoints. Seeing clearly. Beauty is all around me. 

Knowing wisdom. Feeling freedom. This is just the way to be. 

JKC

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