Well, today I felt sick and tired. I don’t know why. I had chills all day and my tummy felt/feels pukey. (My iPad doesn’t like that word!) I spent the morning sleeping in until about 9:45-10:00. Which was nice. Even though I was tired, it took me forever to fall asleep last night. I was tossing and turning. I couldn’t get comfortable. It was terribly frustrating when I felt so darn tired. I was like, he! I can finally go to sleep at bed time, then when I finally get to lie down, I can’t sleep for the life of me. I really wonder if it is because I’m no longer taking my Suboxone. Dr Hauptman, my pain dr won’t like that one bit!! The good thing is that I haven’t had any huge flare-ups of pain, so maybe it was meant to be and I didn’t actually need it anymore…I don’t know. All that I do know is that I wish I could sleep better. 

Once we got up, I sleepily drank my coffee, which didn’t even really help with the sleepiness. As the day progressed, my tummy started to feel ill. I got the shakes for a while. I houngan I was just really hungry, but eating didn’t really help. I helped my middle daughter bake brownies. I think we overcooked them.They’re a little hard, but hopefully The kids will eat them. I certainly don’t need them. I need to lose weight not gain it!! I have fallen off the Weight Watchers wagon.     I’m having a difficult time getting back on, but if we’re going to Jamaica, I really would like to feel a lot better in a bathing suit than I currently do!!

After the brownies were done, we had to get ready to go to dance. I drove her to dance around 3:30. I had to stay in the city, because there was a parent’s meeting at 5:00, so it didn’t make sense to drop her off at 4:00 and then drive home, to turn around and drive back. So, I stayed in the city and went and got us each a sub from Subway. That’s when I was having the shakes and really thought that I needed food to help! Unfortunately, the food didn’t help…it did help kill time a bit, then I read my Jamaica book in the car until it was time to go in for the meeting. The meeting depressed me…about 80% of it was spent talking about the upcoming Disney trip that the dance school is going on. What an opportunity! The kids get to dance in a Disney parade all through Disney. They get to perform on stage. They get training classes. The prices were very reasonable too. It’s so sad. I really wish we could do this for her! I just don’t think it’s a true possibility. It’s not realistic. I really wish we could afford for at least her to go and spend her time with another family. I know some would welcome her with them. What a cool opportunity. I left feeling like worst mom ever. All these wealthier families are like right on, sounds great, sign us up, etc.etc.  I just stayed quiet I knew it wasn’t realistic right now. My hubby’s job is not feeling all that secure after last weeks crap…I’m kind of freaked out by it. I’m so used to him having employment, I don’t know what we’d do if he lost his job!! So I’m not currently in a position where I can say, sure you can go dance in Disney land. 

After the meeting, I drove home and stopped at Sobeys to grab a few groceries. Then I went home to my daughter and son, my hubby was at a funeral all day. His old friend’s brother hung himself. Very sad. He was only 32 years of age. So many years of life ahead of him. When I got home, we put the groceries away and then we did the dishes – fun stuff right!! My oldest decided to order pizza. I only had a couple slices. I had the sub a few hours earlier and my tummy still wasn’t great… she had to go to bed early, for work tomorrow. My son and I played a game for a bit, then I watched a little bit of tv and then it was get ready for bed time. And here we are!! It’s almost midnight and I’m beat!! I’m going to head to bed…well, I’m already in bed, I’m going to go to sleep!! Night all💤😴‼

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