It’s getting late and my daughter isn’t home from dance yet. We car pool with another family and they drive home today. The roads are soooo bad and I’m just a bit (yah right) of a worry-wart! I’m sure they’re fine. I trust his driving. These roads make me sick to my stomach when my oldest is out at work and she has to drive home. It just freaks me out!! I try to think positive and be thankful for her coming home safe and sound, but I have to force myself to think that way and talk that way in my head. It’s like a battle between the worst case scenario and being thankful that she’s safe. I’m going to drive myself crazy!! (Oh! My dancer’s home!! Yay!!). Yes. I have this ongoing battle with negative thoughts and it’s bloody getting annoying. Sometimes it’s like I can’t break away from creating all of these bad things that can possibly, maybe, somehow happen to my family and I. I literally make myself crazy with frightening scenarios of some awful thing that has a zero chance of happening, but I allow myself to get sucked in and freaked out! I know that it is unhealthy, but I do it anyway… so what does that tell you about my mental state? The dumb thing is that I believe in the power of positive thinking. I believe in the whole, you are your thoughts thing… and if that’s the case, I’ve really got to find a way to get a handle on all of the negative garbage. Because, I certainly don’t want any of that to come true – nope, nada, no no no! So now that you know the inner workings of my mind, I’m going to put this mind of mine to bed. While in bed I will NOT be negative tonight, I will think positive thoughts as I drift off to sleep. Positive thoughts, positive thoughts, positive thoughts… night all🌛🌠🌌
To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) to sign a petition to have the World Health Organization (WHO) add Trigeminal Neuralgia (TN) to their “Health topic list.””Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”
Jenn, and you may now know why i was always awake when you came home late as a teenager… i worried too, all “normal” parents do, keep thinking of the positive. dad
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I know. It’s really easy to come up with worse case scenarios!! I try to come up with positives that can outweigh the bad…
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