Awards night is over! My dad and his old partner (my dad’s retired) won an award from the Engineers association (that’s not the actual “official” name), for a distinguished contribution in consulting engineering. (Okay none of those are the correct titles at all!!) The funny thing is that he’s been designing the awards that are given to each recipient. So he was given an award that he designed and made himself – lol. The award was presented to him by the Lt. Governor and was actually a pretty big deal. We had to dress up all fancy-shmancy and there was a “walk of fame” for past presidents of the association (I took a photo of my dad’s star). So we’re on our way home after the big event. My feet are killing me right now! I have one hell of a time finding shoes to fit me. Not only do I have wide feet, but I also have extremely thick feet. I’ve had a hard time finding shoes that fit for as long as I can remember. I recall going into the “naturalizer” store with my mom way back when I was just a little kid. Yes, they had a great selection of stylish children’s shoes…not!! Well, I’m proud of my dad and all he’s done. Congratulations daddy‼️ I love you xox. I’ll leave you with some photos from tonight. 

   
    
   
  
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“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Just about went to bed without writing anything. Oops! I’d be so mad at myself!! I just spent forever doing my nails. It took so long because I’m using my LED light and giving myself gel nails. It’s not my first time doing it, it just always takes a really long time. A really really long time!! I feel like I messed them up and it’s super frustrating when you put all of that time into something and it doesn’t really work out. 😥 The formal awards ceremony gala thingy for my dad is tomorrow. I was hoping that my nails would look nice for it. They’ll do I guess. A couple of them are really bad if you look closely. However, it’s unlikely anybody will care or even notice. I think we tend (or, rather, I) tend to spend more time worrying and preparing than necessary. Also, most people are so busy worrying about themselves and what people think, that no one is really spending time judging you. We all have these concerns about what so and so will think or say, but, for the most part, so and so doesn’t even notice, because they’re busy worrying about themselves. This may all be in my head.  Or, perhaps, I just worry more than the average person. I know my hubby doesn’t care. People can think whatever they want to think, it doesn’t bother him. He’s just himself, without apology. I don’t know if that’s more of a “guys” attitude. Maybe it’s all just me. Worry worry worrying all the time…hmmm, I wonder who I got that from…

I love you momma!!

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“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

I had a nice homey day. I didn’t have to leave the house once, which was nice. I’m tired of the busy, running around days. The days that I feel like a chauffeur. The days when the pain is so bad but there’s no down time, quiet time, calm, slow it down time…nope it’s just run run run. Yuck! Don’t really like those days. Today I just sat watched Greese Live with my oldest daughter. We had fun singing along and just being together without having to worry about the time or getting something done or anything at all. I’m really feeling tired and worn out for some reason. I just feel like it’s been busy and go go go all the time. So, it was nice to have a quiet, do nothing day. And now I’m going to have a nice quiet night. And, this will end here, because I want to go to bed before 11:00 for once!! Zzzz…

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“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Yadda yadda yadda…bla bla bla

Some days I find I have nothing to really write about. I go on about my day, but how boring that must be for people who actually read this…”today I don’t feel well…”, “I’m so exhausted today…”, “didn’t really do anything today, because I feel like crap…”, etc etc etc!!! I think that when I first began writing these posts I had all these big ideas in my head. About reaching people, saying something profound maybe, help myself and others living with Trigeminal Neuralgia by discovering some new thing to do or I don’t know, just something that would really help make things shift for me and perhaps others. I am feeling pretty negative about things today. Not sure why I feel like this…I guess I just hoped maybe I’d get inspired or inspire others or something! But, for the most part, this just seems like a diary of my very unexciting life. I know I have more in me. I want to write a book or do something with my writing, not the bla bla blas of my life. Oh well. Too bad for me. So, not really knowing what to write and not wanting to give another über exciting description of my day, or my damn pain and not really wanting to load any more negativity to the already poopy situation, I’m not going to write anything else for today. I don’t want to rant, or pout, or complain, yet that is the direction my brain wants to head, so I’m just going to call it a night and go to bed. 

Yadda yadda yadda – that’s all folks!!

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“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Time sure flies by. I feel like the kids just went back to school, yet it’s the first of February tomorrow. Crazy! My daughter danced today during the intermission at the Oil Kings hockey game today. She (well, all of them) did really well. Especially considering that they only had two classes to learn their dance! Today’s game was a charity game, benefiting breast cancer. They call it “pink in the rink”. We all wore pink shirts to the game. Actually, the entire team wore pink jerseys! The stage that they danced on was kind of strangely situated. It was on the “fans” side, not on the ice. I thought that they’d probably have some sort of stage that they push onto the ice for intermission and then move for the game. But, instead, they weren’t on the ice at all and they faced towards the ice – or glass barrier in front of them. Fortunately all of our seats were right in the area beside where the stage was set up. My daughter was so nervous about being in front of so many people, but once she saw the set up, I think it helped her feel a bit more comfortable. It was probably easier for the dancers, but not so much for the audience (basically friends and family of the dancers on either side of the stage). They were recording the whole time and showing the dancing on the jumbo-tron, so lots of people were watching, they just weren’t right in front of the stage. I’m actually not trying to be overly negative about it, because they had lots of fun. They were given an excellent opportunity to practice dancing with a lot of people watching. The more often they step on stage to perform in front of people, the more comfortable they’ll get performing (does that make sense??) It was exciting for her to be going on a stage to dance in such a big arena. The same arena where she’s watched concerts, like Katy Perry. We had a good day. My face wasn’t overly bad while we were there, yay face! We got to spend a fun afternoon out actually doing something as a family. Well, plus a couple friends and grandparents (oh, grandparents are family…duh!) All in all, t was just a pretty good day. I just love to watch my daughter dancing. No complaints from me tonight. And…I’m off to bed. 

Oh yah, in-case anyone was wondering, the Oil Kings kicked butt and won he game, 6 vs 2!!!

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“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Brace yourself for the shortest post in history! I’m not feeling well…well, what else is new?? I don’t even know why I continue to write that. Do I ever feel well?? I’m just tired and know that tomorrow will be a long day. I wanted to be asleep by now, yet here I am, again, writing at midnight! Argh!!! I so frustrate myself. If that makes sense…I worded that oddly didn’t I?? My daughter is dancing during the intermission at tomorrow’s Oil Kings hockey game. She’s feeling nervous and excited. I’m sure she’ll be great, but I understand the nerves. That is a huge place to be dancing in. All of the kids who did it last year warned her to not look at the jumbo-tron or she’ll get all mixed up. But now she is worrying about not looking at the jumbo-tron, she’s thinking and worrying about doing so. Again, I know she’ll do really well. I’m feeling anxious, because she’s feeling anxious. If that makes any sense to anyone. I think it is a mom thing. The anticipation and seeing her with her nerves rattling away – I just soak up that energy she’s putting off and feel the same way!! Well, I need sleep. I don’t want to feel too hellish tomorrow. And if the pain’s bad, I can’t use my medicinal marijuana at the game.  So, I really need to sleep. Night night!!

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“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

To start off on a positive note, I’m definitely feeling better than yesterday. I’ve had a long day and am feeling knackered (Hee Hee – I just love that expression and I hear my friends voice in my head every time I hear or say it!!) I had to drive to St. Albert to see my pain doc today. Same-old same-old…fill this, increas that, decrease this, try that.  I do actually like him, it’s just that treating this damn disease gets exhausting. I just wish that there was a magic pill that is a cure-all…not more pain, no more bottles and bottles of pills, did I mention the no more pain part? That’s life in a dream land, it just doesn’t happen like that now does it?? After my appointment, I went to The Bay to buy a body shaper thing to wear under my dress this Thursday for my dad’s award. Those things are crazy expensive!! Holy moly!! But, with the amount of weight that I’ve gained, I needed to buy one. I’m just not comfortable in my own skin. I feel more like I’m inside this big, wobbly, lumpy body that doesn’t belong to me. It’s like I’m being smothered inside. Talk about being detached from my physical self. It’s like my body has become the enemy. It no longer works right, doesn’t look right, doesn’t feel right…it’s all just off. I hate that I feel that way. So disconnected and separate from my body. It’s so sad really. One of my goals for 2016 is to start doing yoga at least, bare minimum, two times a week, but I’d like to do more. It really appeals to me and it is so much about the mind-body connection through breath and mindfulness. I hope it can teach me how to start feeling “me” again. I don’t know if that makes any sense, but that’s my goal. I can’t keep feeling like this about myself. Also, the mindfulness/meditative part of yoga should help with the pain. But, where I’m at right now, today, is buying an eighty dollar shape-wear thing to wear under my dress, in an attempt to smooth some of the lumps and bumps and wiggly parts – lol! Who ever said breathing’s important?? I can just have it all sucked in for a night, right?! I was once told (& I completely disagree, I’m all about comfort!!) “sometimes you have to sacrifice comfort for fashion!” LOL 

Hmmm…didn’t mean to steer the conversation in that way. Oh well, the truth is what it is. And, the truth right now is, I need to wear this thing under my dress. And that’s that!!

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“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Feeling really crappy today. My hubby says I have the flu. I have body aches & shakes & my temperature is high. Well it’s 38.8 or 102. Accept I’m freezing again. But I’m not believing I have the flu. I just had that damn tummy bug a couple weeks ago. How can I be feeling like this so soon? It doesn’t make any sense. I think I’m going to lie down while my little dude is at kindergarten. I’m so damn hot & sweaty…gross! I wonder if I can find the energy to have a shower? It’s like my body has lost the ability to regulate my temperature. Strange. I’m supposed to be going to a friend’s house tonight for an essential oils party thing. One of those MLM programs. Maybe if I have a shower and a rest I’ll be more up to snuff. This is it for now. I’m going to sleep or shower or both. I haven’t really decided which order yet. I really need and want a shower, however I don’t have the least bit of energy. Hmmm. 

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“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

When’s the last time you were overflowing with joy?

Can you immediately recall without too much thought?

Or do you have to take pause to remember a time?

Do you make your own joy…don’t you think you ought??

When’s the last time you said the words, “I love you?”

Do you instantly know off the top of your head?

Can you list those you love without skipping a beat?

Would they know if their names were the ones you said?

When’s the last time you gave someone a hug?

Can you easily remember when the last time was?

These are things that you should do each and every day. 

If you don’t, I truly hope these words give you pause. 

JKC 

Too forced…again 😥

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“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Today will be short. I’m having a pain-filled day. My hubby had to run out to pick up his new suit. Next week my dad is winning a very prestigious award next week. It’s a formal dinner and awards ceremony. Apparently the tickets are crazy high per person. Fortunately, my dad’s company paid for tickets for all of us (adults, not the kids). My hubby has been wanting to buy a nice suit for work and then we were invited to go to my dad’s award ceremony, which was the perfect excuse to go out and buy a new suit. He will wear it a lot for work, since his promotion he’s been to a few meetings with the big-wigs, and he’s wished that he had a good suit. So, now he does! ($900.00 later!! Am I outdated or is that a lot of money?!) He should be home soon.  Hopefully it doesn’t take him too long, because it’s raining!!!! So so strange. Edmonton in January and it’s pouring rain?? I came upstairs to lie down, since I’m not well tonight, and my little man, who my daughter was supposed to keep an eye on, followed me shortly afterward. I wonder if she has even noticed he’s not with her? Actually, he probably told her he was going up to cuddle with mommy, or something like that. Anyway, my point is, I’m feeling really awful and he wants me to do something with him on the ipad. He’s five, so he occasionally forgets that we can just talk, we don’t have to yell! And, apparently, something (on the iPad) was just “epic!!” I’m just not feeling well and I’m going to go to sleep the second my hubby comes home…night all!

Wow! Great timing!! My hubby just walked in th door!! Lol. Night all!

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“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!