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Weird Right??

February 24, 2016Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Well, I’m sorry to say that today hasn’t really been much better. Maybe a tad, but that’s about it. My daughter has pink eye and she stayed home with my youngest. I had to force myself to function enough to get my daughter to and from dance. I’m not too sure about that oil stuff. I tried it early this afternoon and didn’t really notice anything, until I had to drive my daughter to the city, of course!! I felt a bit light-headed and dizzy. This may just have been because I was hungry, or the reaction to another one of my meds (I’m on many with dizziness being a side-effect). It was strange. I didn’t feel “high,” like I’m sure everyone imagines when they hear about oil or marijuana. I just felt weird. It was more than 3 and a half hours after I had tried the oil. Everything I read contradicted something else. I got myself all worried about driving, and, low and behold, I was fine once I ate. Since I was likely looking for something to feel or be different after taking the oil, I overreacted (all in my head), hours later, when I was doing my pukey, dizzy, thing I do when I’m hungry! Looking back, I’m 99% sure that it was just my tummy. I’ve been doing so well with food, that I didn’t want to mess up. So, I grabbed healthy stuff, even though it was a bit more work. I’m proud of how well I’m doing and sticking to this. I didn’t want it to be just another diet program that inevitably ends up only having short term effects or I don’t stick to it. I Iike how this program is all about teaching you clean eating. It isn’t just a short term eating plan. It’s trying to teach you new habits. Permanent, not temporary, new behaviours. It also talks about getting adequate rest. So, I’m off to bed – too late… Oh well. I can’t turn back time. And it wouldn’t have changed the late bedtime. I didn’t do my Tai Chen before my daughter’s dance, so I had to do it once I got home. We did it. My oldest is still doing it with me!! Despite the pain, I actually was functioning like a normal human-being, weird right??!!

To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) to sign a petition to have the World Health Organization (WHO) add Trigeminal Neuralgia (TN) to their “Health topic list.”

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Rough, Day 3 Gazzillion!!!

February 23, 2016Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

I’m sorry to say, but today was no better than yesterday. I’ve had a rough go at it the past few days. Some are just bad and others are not great, but recently they’ve been rough, bad, shitty, high pain, #10 on the pain scale, etc etc , you get the picture. Today I tried oil for the first time…okay, that sounds stupid. I tried the oil version of the medicinal marijuana that I take. The ratio that I ordered is the 10/10. This means that the thc and the cbd content is equal. It was outrageously expensive almost $200 for a 50ml bottle‼️‼️ Yes, you heard me correctly…that much money for, I repeat, only 50ml’s!! I tried it out because I’ve never used it and wanted to see what it’s like. If I let it dissolve under my tongue it takes about 1 – 1.25hours before I feel anything, as opposed to “vaping” it, where it is immediately absorbed by the lungs. If I were to ingest it in some type of food, like brownie, it would take even long, closer to 2-4 hours before I would feel it. I wish I could use the oil and not have to vape at all. However, the cost of the oil makes it unlikely that we’ll be buying it all the time. I wanted some so I’d have it with me for times when I’m out and I still need the medication, but can’t vape it. So, for the most part, I’ll just have to stick to vaping and hacking away when I do. It hurts my throat so badly. But, it’s the only way we can afford it. Right after I’m done this I’m going to try the new one that I bought, the 15/5. I’m hoping it helps with sleep, but touches the pain more than the 17/1. I can sleep with the 17/1, but the 1 cbd isn’t very high. So, since I’m about to finish writing, I’m going Togo give it a puff and see if it’ll be better. Hopefully it’s not a $100 mistake!!! Cause, that would suck!! Well, here I go and I’m about to find out!! Night All!❌😘❌‼️

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Rough…

February 22, 2016Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Today’s been rough. So much so that I didn’t go to my art class tonight😢. I hate these days. I made myself do my Tai Chen workout, despite my face pain, so that’s something. I know that, in the long run, regular exercise is important for my health and for pain-control. Part of learning to live with severe chronic pain is making the choice to live your life. I have come to terms with the fact that this isn’t going anywhere. I’m going to have bad days and that’s that. I can take my meds, “vape” my medicinal marijuana. My goal, other than getting a bit more fit, is to have Tai Chi as a slow, calming tool in my arsenal for the bad days. Because I’m just learning, it’s not yet a gentle and slow pace. However, by the end of the videos, I will have a long sequence of tai chi exercises that I can use to calm myself. Relieving tension while I am in the midst of stabbing pain will come in handy. So, although it may be difficult now, I’m determined to complete the 90 days training without falling behind. For tonight though, I’m done and I need to sleep away my pain. Sorry this is so short , it’s all that’s left in me for tonight.

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

I Just Don’t Want To Say Goodbye…

February 21, 2016Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

I just don’t want to say goodbye

Just thinking about it makes me cry

The order’s reversed, the times all wrong

I still think of you when I hear that song

“It’s just not fair,” I cried to God

“I’ll trade his place,” I yelled with a nod

Yet all was quiet, too quiet you see

You still weren’t back down here with me

“He can’t be gone” “he’s just a boy”

“He was filled with life, with love, with joy”

It’s still too quiet without you here

This silence fills my heart with fear

It’s pushing me to say goodbye

I’m not sure I can, I don’t want to try

Your face, your laugh it’s still so strong

I sit on your bed and pretend you’re not gone

If I close my eyes and breath in deep

I can still kiss your forehead and watch you sleep

You’re still my baby, you’ll always be

That will never ever change for me

The words remain as a lump in my throat

Remaining quiet is what keeps me afloat

Losing a child is just so wrong

I still think of you when I hear that song

Just thinking about it makes me cry

I just don’t want to say goodbye…

JKC

This is dedicated to my cousin Barbra Chambers, on a very difficult anniversary, as well as my uncle and aunt Dode and Roy Chambers, because it’s there everyday… My heart aches for all of you.

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

⤴️Pain⤵️Energy Day

February 20, 2016Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

I’ve had a high pain, low energy day. Just feeling super bla. I’ve been sleepy all day. Today was the first day that I didn’t do my Tai Chen workout. I’m feeling mad at myself for not getting it done today. However, I’m not going to fall into my old cycle. Which basically is giving up because I had an off day. I tend to do that with overeating too. If I have a meal where I splurge, either by eating too much or overdoing it on dessert. It’s such an all or nothing attitude. I’m trying to teach myself to react differently. One off meal or day or whatever doesn’t mean it’s time to completely throw in the towel. It’s normal behaviour to overdo it or to miss a workout here and there. The best thing to do is just keep on moving forward. So, tomorrow will be better. Rest day is usually Sundays on the program I’m following. This week only, it will be Saturday instead. No big deal. The world isn’t coming to a halt or anything! Besides, I’ve convinced my oldest daughter to do the 90 day program with me (I know, shocking right??!). So, our official start day is going to be on Monday. This works best with the set-up of the video, with each week having 6 different workouts/week. So I’m just starting back on “day 1” on Monday (even though I’ve done the first few, I’ll just begin again.) I don’t mind repeating them because for one, if it gets my daughter’s butt of the couch, I’ll begin on Monday with her. As well, it just fits with the way the program is set up. Having a break on Tuesday’s and day 1 through 6 on Wednesday to Monday is just weird.
I haven’t got much more to say tonight. I’m just so tired and my face is bad bad bad. It’s time for my bed-time puffer medicine (how we refer to my medicinal marijuana) and rest. I’m just so darn tired today. I can hardly keep them open. So, this is it for today. Night all💤💤

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Are Your Dreams A reality??

Do you follow your dreams or just dream?

Without action dreams are just thoughts!

Have you considered how it may seem?

To only spend your time thinking lots and lots?

Turn your thoughts toward steps you can take.

What’s the first thing you could do?

To make your dreams a reality when you’re awake?

Writing things down can really help you!

Breaking things down into smaller steps,

Can turn the overwhelming into doable acts.

Then step by step, you’ll know what to do next,

And soon your dreams turn into facts!!

You’ve conquered your fears and moved ahead.

You should feel great about yourself!

Now you can dream up new dreams in your head.

And you can thrive in a fulfilling life of wealth!!

JKC

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Circles, cycles

February 18, 2016Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Circles, cycles

Choices, actions

Trust, faith

Yes, no

Hesitation, perseverance

Right, wrong

Judgements, consequences

Retribution, vengeance

Guilt, shame

Remorse, regret

Destitution, resignation

Reclamation, reformation

Decisions, opportunities

Trust, faith

Choices, actions

Circles, cycles…

Hopefully once day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Right??

February 17, 2016Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Well poop my face hurts! Another rough day…but, on the bright side, I’ve been sticking to my clean eating with the 21 day fix. Also, I’ve been on top of my water intake, making sure to have the recommended amount for my gender and weight. And, let me tell you, that’s a lot of water!! My BB Tai Chen kit arrived today (yay!!). I went through all of the materials. I did the fit test and the day 1 neural-reset, as well as the Tai Chi segment. And…I’m in horrible shape! Seriously, I mean really really bad!!! I guess that when your in pain, so you spend the majority of your time in bed or on the couch for about two years it really catches up with you. There’s clearly a reason why I get out of breath just going up stairs…Well, I’m doing this Tai Chen program for a very good reason right??

Hopefully once day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

A Life Of Wealth

February 16, 2016Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

You didn’t do it, you ran out of time

You walked away, like you’d committed a crime

With your shoulders slumped and your eyes cast down

You slipped away without turning around

You didn’t think you’d get another chance

So you just gave up, without a backwards glance

Did you even think to ask for a hand

Did you think it’d be an unreasonable demand

Do you really believe you only have yourself

Because you’re robbing yourself a life filled with wealth

Going it alone is exhausting and hard

So break open your heart and stop standing on guard

JKC

Hopefully once day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Home Safe And Sore!

The kids and I are home from a long weekend visiting a friend in Rocky Mtn House. I’m feeling pretty exhausted and it’s nice to be home (don’t get me wrong, I did have a lot of fun and it was great to see my friend and her kiddos). I am just feeling pretty warn out though. I feel like I could sleep for the next twenty four hours – or more!! I’m wearing my new, organic eucalyptus sports bra and it’s super comfy, Canadian made. My friend has a wonderful little store in Rocky Mtn House called, “Earthy Fibres and More”. I also bought a hoodie, pants, a nighty, a t-shirt, as well as some essential oils I needed for my diffuser. Yes, she’s one of my best friends, so I’m putting it on here just because she deserves it. It’s such a nice shop, with so many things from decorative, clothing ,to yoga equipment and cloth diapers. That’s my mini plug for her store. She’s getting close to having to shut down, because business is so slow. I find it really sad. She used the small inheritance that she got when her mom passed away, because it was a dream of hers. It hurts my heart. So, if you’re ever up and around Ricky Mtn House, be sure to pop by.

Okay, I’m sorry if that seems inappropriate. I just want good things for her. So, here’s a shocker, my face hurts a lot tonight, but that’s to be expected when I’m this tired. Of course, I’m writing this when I should really be sleeping…nothing new there, lol! But, on that note, I’m going to head off to bed. I leave with you a photo of my lovely face…the dentist appointment I had on Friday has done me in. It was on the bad side of my face, of course, it was quite the trigger. It’s Monday night and I’m still unable to open my mouth widely. Also, I’m sporting a lovely momento (good thing they were “gentle” on my sore side) from that fun appointment…(hence the photo!!) Night all💤

Nice, eh??

Hopefully once day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

The Spirit Scribe

I challenge myself to write 365 posts in 2016to heal Body, Mind & Spirit. Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Tag Archives: #yayme

Weird Right??

Rough, Day 3 Gazzillion!!!

Rough…

I Just Don’t Want To Say Goodbye…

⤴️Pain⤵️Energy Day

Are Your Dreams A reality??

Circles, cycles

Right??

A Life Of Wealth

Home Safe And Sore!