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She Smiles

June 14, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #coaching, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #life by design, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

She smiles when it hurts

She smiles when it doesn’t

She smiles when she’s tired

She smiles when she’s awake

She smiles when she’s high

She smiles when she’s sober

She smiles when she’s happy

She smiles when she’s sad

She smiles when she’s angry

She smiles when she’s laughing

She smiles when she’s busy

She smiles when she’s bored

She smiles all the time

How do you know how she feels,

If every time you look,

She smiles?

JKC

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“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Big Dreams

June 13, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #coaching, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #life by design, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

She has big dreams

Inside her heart

To keep her sanity

From falling apart

She holds them close

But keeps things real

She doesn’t know

That dreams can heal

She doesn’t believe

That she can create

A life she loves

To celebrate

She was always told

To do her best

To work really hard

Like all the rest

But day by day

She’s losing herself

She won’t let them out

She has them shelved

If she only knew

What she could be

What she could do

What she could see

If she found the courage

To go all in

To follow her heart

To let herself win

She could do so much

And be someone

Who touched the world

Who reached for the sun

She has big dreams

Inside her heart

It takes just one step

To finally start

JKC

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Take A Bow

June 12, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #coaching, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #life by design, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Waking up, not ready for the show

Enter stage right, the pain

Pop another pill, take another hit

Sinking slowly into the fog

The pleasant numbness gradually fills

Slowly flowing into her limbs

Deadening the all-encompassing pain

That overwhelms her days

Movements slow and lumbering

She goes through the motions

Pretending to function like the masses

Feeling flat, yet fabricating emotions

Incessantly saying the words,”I’m fine”

The only thing to break through the fog is the pain

Of course it is

The never-ending, all-encompassing pain

Popping another pill in an attempt to disrupt that pain

Gradually burning from the inside out

Needing to extinguish that ever-present fire in her face

Wishing she had the will of even a quarter of that damn domineering pain

The fight is seemingly futile

Vaping drops a transparent blanket over the pain

She can still see the pain, find its pulse, yet it is as if she were on the outside, looking in

Witnessing her pain from a removed stance

Her brain won’t stop, won’t shutdown

She can analyze until the sunrises

With inadequate sleep, the pain escalates

Pop another pill, take another hit

Call forth the numbness and enter the faker

She’s needed for her daily role

Take a bow

JKC

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Good Riddance

Compressing her heart,

Attempting to close it down.

She can’t let him in,

She’s done with that clown!

Around and around he goes,

Forever changing his mind.

This time it’s final, she’s done!

And that’s just what he’ll find!

He can crawl on his knees!

He can send a hundred roses!

She’s not taking him back,

Her resolve is firm, she knows it.

She’s done with games!

She’s done with heartache!

So he can take his stuff,

She just wants a clean break!

When he says,”I’m sorry”

And then says, “I still love you”

She’s going to be prepared.

She’ll know exactly what to do!

Ignore, ignore, ignore!

Don’t talk or get sucked in!

Know his charm is fake!

This time, he just won’t win!

Breathing in the fresh air,

She smiles, finally feeling good,

Feeling peaceful and calm.

She’s feeling just as she should!

JKC

Year End Dance Show

June 11, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #coaching, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #life by design, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

I have to write something fast,

Because I’m tired and it’s late.

Tomorrow is going to be

A busy day, I can’t wait!

We have to drive to Fort Saskatchewan,

For the year end dance show,

At my daughter’s dance school.

What to expect…I don’t know!?

There are two shows,

But we’re only watching the second show.

She’s going to be super tired,

This is something for sure, I know!

She’ll be dancing,

From noon ’till ten!

It makes it a long day,

Until the end.

But she’ll have fun,

And so will we!

I love to watch!

I can’t wait to see!

We’ll be killing time,

All day long.

While she’s dancing away,

To her favourite song!

So I’m off to bed,

It’s far too late!

I’m going to be exhausted,

For an important date!!

JKC

A Night With The Creeps

June 10, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #coaching, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #life by design, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Sorry for the poor editing yesterday. I was pretty tired and out of it while writing. I told myself that I’m going to write a poem everyday for the rest of the year. And, since I already tackled writing daily, I thought making it a poem daily would be an added challenge. So, some days they just flow and others, not so much. But, hopefully, out of every 10 bad ones, there’s a good one. Then, by the end of the year I’ll have a good size collection of good poems. That’s the idea behind it anyway. So, I guess I’ll try to write one now. Some days I just can’t get the ol’juices flowing as easily, so bear with me!(did I use the wrong form of the word, “bear”??? I used to know those things easily, back in my university days!!)

Running in fear,

Sweating and shaking!

Unsure if she’s safe,

Feels like the earth is quaking!

Questioning why,

She has such bad luck!

Just another thing,

To add to the muck!

She hears a sound,

And sucks in her breath!

What’s after her?

She’s scared to death!

And then there’s silence,

In a suffocating way.

It’s too quiet!

Will this be the day?

Did she tell him

She loves him so?

Did she hug her kids,

And let them know?

Out of the quiet,

Someone calls her name.

Does she answer,

Or is this a sick game?

Suddenly a light,

As bright as day!

And her name again.

Does she move or stay?

“Hon” she hears

“Wake up, you’re dreaming!”

She lets out a sob,

“I heard you screaming!”

She opens her eyes,

To see his caring face.

She grips him tight,

Sweating like she just won a race!

“Are you okay now,”he asks,

Concern in his eyes.

“I think so,” she answers

“But did the kids hear my cries?”

He shakes his head, no.

“Thank goodness,”she sighs.

She snuggles into his chest,

She’s still afraid to close her eyes.

She feels the rise and fall

Of his chest as he sleeps.

Another long night for her,

For she still has the creeps…

JKC

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Her Sad Smile

June 9, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #coaching, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #life by design, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

She’s getting ready for her big day.

You only graduate once,

Is what she hears everyone say.

Yet, her heart isn’t in it,

She doesn’t feel like smiling.

It just doesn’t quite fit.

She knew it’d feel impossible does she want to do this – never,

Because, it’s always looming during big events!

It will be so, always and forever!

She should have been there,

To pick out the dress, to find perfect shoes,

When getting her nails done, as well as her hair.

A girl wants and needs her Mommy around,

And when she’s not, it feels wrong!

Like something is off, there’s no steady ground.

She steps into her shoes and wobbles a bit.

Mom would have laughed and steadied her.

She would have asked,”did you practice it?”

These are the times she needs her most!

These are the days her absence fills the room…

These are the moments she would have made a toast…

About her clumsiness and laughed and laughed…

But she’s not here to hold her up or make her laugh.

Sudden vertigo makes her almost fall- no mom there as a safety raft.

She pulls Herself together and enters the room.

Her dad looks nostalgic, he sees her in me…again.

“I’m sorry dad”she says loud as a boom.

He says,”Baby you’re beautiful and she would be proud.”

But she doesn’t feel comfortable,

Just awkward and loud.

She feels a slight breeze, “Mommy” she says.

It flows all around her then is gone.

She truly believes, she has her ways.

“I miss you Mommy, oh so much”

The breeze caresses her cheek and disappears.

“Thanks for coming Mom, I love you too!”

“Who are you talking to” her dad asks.

“Oh, just myself. Dad? I love you!”

They leave together, younger sister trips in her shoes.

“I felt her today” she stands back and whispers to her sister.

There dad waves, “Coming!!” She smiles at her little sis,”yes, I know me too!”

She steps out the door, with dignity and grace.

Ready to do this. Feeling much better.

Her dad doesn’t know why it’s there, but he loves the smile on her face!

JKC

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Simply Innocent

June 7, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #coaching, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #life by design, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Surrounded by her fears,

She holds herself back.

Accepting her current place,

As the end of the track.

Turning away from opportunity,

She blindly moves about.

Unaware of the burning potential,

That’s just waiting to sprout!

Simple innocence keeps her stagnant.

Naively she ignores the thoughts,

That try to show her there’s more,

Much much more, to life than naught.

She needs a benevolent mentor,

To take her and gently guide her,

To experience life’s many wonders,

And fill where the empty places were!

How changed would she be,

If she found the courage,

To allow her guide to show her,

Things that’d help her flourish!

JKC

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

A Good Day

A good day

Wow! That’s new!

Who knew what it feels like,

It’s not something I’m used to!

I just had a headache,

Ah! No big deal!!

Nothing to worry about!

Nothing to conceal!

How strange it feels,

To receive a kiss on the cheek!

I flinched and cringed

And waited all meek…

But it didn’t come

On my cheek and my ear.

I’m shocked it didn’t hurt

Or even make me tear!

So I brushed my teeth,

And only felt a twinge!

I stopped and waited

For the heat to singe…

But it didn’t come,

What a surprise!

Not a shock of pain!

Such joyful cries!!

So I scrubbed my face,

And wore a mud mask!

I feel fresh and clean!

I so enjoyed the task!

So here’s to today,

May my luck continue!

If not, I’m grateful for today,

I’ve no complaining to do!!

JKC

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Our Caregivers

June 5, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #coaching, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #life by design, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

They mean well,

They do, it’s true!

But they don’t really get it,

Even when they think they do.

They touch you tenderly,

With compassion on their minds.

But it makes you flinch,

While they’re trying to be kind.

They do so much for you,

That it fills you with guilt!

But you just want to hide,

And cuddle up in your quilt!

You try to appreciate,

All of the kind intentions,

But inside the frustration builds,

And fills you with tension!

It’s just another thing,

You feel guilty about!

There are so many reasons,

You wish you could just shout!

You try to hold back the tears,

Until you’re on your own.

Crying in front of them,

Makes them feel futile and alone.

They love you so much,

They want to do all they can!

They want to fix things,

Especially if your caregivers a man.

Men tend to want,

To physically fix it,

But this isn’t about,

Pieces that don’t fit!

Just take care of the kids,

The dogs and the rest!

I’m so grateful for all you do

You’re just the best!!

Thanks for your love,

Your patience, your thoughts!

If I had to do this alone,

I’d become a crackpot!!

JKC

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

The Spirit Scribe

I challenge myself to write 365 posts in 2016to heal Body, Mind & Spirit. Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

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She Smiles

Big Dreams

Take A Bow

Good Riddance

Year End Dance Show

A Night With The Creeps

Her Sad Smile

Simply Innocent

A Good Day

Our Caregivers