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On Nights Like This

May 5, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Sleep is fleeting

My brain won’t let go

Exhaustion sets in

My transient thoughts flow

On nights like this

The battle is lost

My face is aching

The sheets are all tossed

I should get up

I should just give in

On nights such as this

I cannot win

Yet here I lie

In this muddled mess

With these muddled thoughts

In muddled distress

JKC

To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) to sign a petition to have the World Health Organization (WHO) add Trigeminal Neuralgia (TN) to their “Health topic list.”

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Until He’s Not

His entangled thoughts burn with anger.

The smell of his rage is overpowering!

What move to make ?

He sits simmering and glowering.

Why such animalistic aggression?

How did it shift so fast?

When feeling mocked and ridiculed,

Hiding his anger couldn’t last!

She adores him so, only sees the good!

He convinces himself something’s behind her motives.

Yet she doesn’t know he’s plotting,

While she sits quietly with her votives.

He’s ready to burst with rage!

She’s calmly leaning back, looking up at the skies.

She doesn’t know what he’s capable of.

Will it require her to say her goodbyes?

Underestimating how his aggression pushes him,

She bows out slowly, and turns to leave,

With a sudden jump after her,

She feels him grab her sleeve!

Did I forget something, so naive and trusting,

Unprepared for his fist and the push onto her back!

He yanks her up, smirks at her tears.

He punches her, she feels something crack!

Through tears, snot and blood, she tries to run,

He grabs her hair and drags her across the room!

She screams for help, then spots the wrench,

She whips it across the face of her handsome groom,

With her makeshift weapon she hits his eye!

She be-lines it for the door,

Opens it, slams it, doesn’t look back!

She runs out screaming, her heart in horror!

He almost grabs her again,

But doors open up and people step out.

Her heart has shattered,

She thought she knew, without a doubt…

A week goes by, she smells her flowers.

They make her smile,

He’s sent so many!

She’s in denial..,

He’s said he’s sorry so many times,

She starts to believe it was all a big mistake.

It was an accident, he was out of control!

Yet everyone can see that he’s fake!!

But, she takes him back,

She loves him so!

He loves her too,

He’ll never let her go!

He had a bad day,

He’s feeling mad.

Today it’s just a backhand,

It’s not so bad…

The cycle begins,

He’s all she’s got.

He’s oh so sorry,

Until he’s not…

JKC

So So Pukey

May 3, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

I’m just feeling like hell suddenly. I think I ate something off. It’s just awful! My tummy is just crampy and gurgling and off. It’s bad. It’s way more than just nausea. I truly feel like I’m about to be sick. Ug… I was going to write another poem tonight, but not anymore! Nope! Now, this is pretty much all you’ll be getting, because this is all I’m doing. Sorry folks, but I gotta go puke and lie down…blech!!

Floating On A Cloud

May 2, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Floating on a cloud

My brain sounds too damn loud

Can’t turn it off

Tired like a sloth

Floating on a cloud

Just blend in with the crowd

Most people won’t know

My face is about to blow

Floating on a cloud

Think they notice I’m wearing a shroud

As lightning strikes my face

I have to get out of this place

Floating on a cloud

Why am I so damn proud

I didn’t have to go

I just hate to miss a show

JKC

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

My Two Devoted Readers

April 25, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Wow! I think that the only two who really even read this anymore are my two, devoted, Joanne’s…my Mom and Jo my best friend for years and years (literally since grade 7). So I can pretty much say anything. Although Murphy’s law would say that the day that I do write gibberish will be the time that other people read this. I really need to get back to posting this on Facebook! Actually, Jo may not even be reading these much, since she’s on a holiday with her hubby. She won’t be missing much tonight, because I have a migraine and am going to take my migraine meds and hit the hay. I hope that this isn’t one of those nasty, lingering migraines, as this week is pretty busy for me. Tomorrow is the only day for the rest of the week that I have nothing going on. Well, actually, that’s not 100% true. I’m babysitting for a couple hours for a friend tomorrow afternoon. The next day is the appointment at the UofA pain clinic (after 18 months on the waiting list. For the pain clinic that my neurosurgeon is a part of. He couldn’t get me ahead- apparently that would be like playing favourites??? Go figure…) Anyway, then my daughter’s second dance competition is from Thursday until Sunday. Fun fun…well, actually, I love watching the dancing, it just always turns into very full and busy days. Also, I’m usually exhausted for the few days following the competitions. I hate that I still get drained and tired so easily. So very frustrating!! So, I’m going to go to bed. I want to nip this migraine in the bud. If that makes sense…strange expression huh?? So, until tomorrow. Night Momma (although you don’t usually read these until the morning). Hope you’re having a great time Jo, if you are indeed reading these while away!! Thanx for remaining my biggest fans. I love and appreciate you both!!!

To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) ) to their “Health topic list.”

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Never Be Apart

She silently prays for change

Looking inward for her discarded power

Distracting him with expression

Lies raining down like a shower

Eyes squeezed open he stares

Wondering if she’s lost his heart

Crushed beyond recognition, perhaps

Always, he remains willing to restart

Blindly they gaze into each other’s eyes

Wordlessly begging for their love to remain

Foolish or not, neither will surrender

Accepting that love goes hand in hand with pain

For love to overcome, one must take leaps of faith

Otherwise, she will crumple and fall into despair

And he would burry his mangled heart with anger

Instead, they believe that enduring love is still there

Realization dawns, love is her power

Understanding comes, his power is evidently her heart

Full of devotion, he gently kisses her hands

Together they vow to never be apart

JKC

To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) ) to their “Health topic list.”
“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Silent Wishes

April 23, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Drifting aimlessly from destruction

No faith will surely sink you

Clinging to the slippery hope

There’s little else left to do

Falling silently down a thoughtless waterfall

Trust in something bigger

Screaming in decibels beyond my soul

Making dramatic pain snicker

Praying aggressively on my shins

Dreams for certain change

Peering secretly around my heart

Is more than I can arrange

JKC

To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) ) to their “Health topic list.”

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

To Publish??

I bought two books about writing today. They’re very different. One is a no bullshit, here’s a bunch of tools, quick-wit go go go type book, called, “The Kick Ass Writer”. Which I’m clearly not because I can’t, for the life of me remember if that period was supposed to be inside or outside the quotes. The second book talks about a zen writing method. There’s meditation involved and very soulful, deep-digging to bring out the depth of your thoughts and emotions, called “The True Secret Of Writing”. Very different approaches. They both appealed to different parts of me. So, hopefully, I will get something out of them!! I’ve been told by numerous people that I should publish my blog. I don’t know a thing about doing that. It’s something to think of. One of the books includes information on how to do all of that (& I intentionally made sure that the info would be Canadian, so that it actually applies to my needs!!)

Right now my needs are to go to bed. I either have bad allergies going on or I’m getting a cold. Either way, I’m super tired and I’m getting to bed!! Night all…😴😴

To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) ) to their “Health topic list.”

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Warning, Internet Scam!!

April 21, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

🚧🚧🚧 WARNING 🚧🚧🚧

DON’T EVER BUY ANY TRU BELLEZA PRODUCTS!!!!

So, tonight will be a bit of a warning section and a bit of a bitch session, but not about my health for once!! I think I got scammed…{yes, again, my hubby tells me I’m far too trusting!}😥😥 I saw an online add for some high-end “sample” skin care products that I “only had to pay shipping on”. Well, Apparently (according to itty bitty print that shows up after you pay for said shipping.) it’s not a sample, but a 14 day “trial”…sigh. However, they very intentionally make sure that you don’t receive your “trial” until the 14 days have already passed, so that you have no choice but pay for the sample…far far far too much money. I searched it online and figured it out too late, along with literally thousands of other women. It took forever to find the information about what a big scam it is because they have like 50 fake positive reviews that show up on google search, long before the true reviews begin to surface. So, I read the (now that I know, fake) “reviews” and figured it was just a great promo going on…here’s my fatal error, I entered my credit card number and, without yet knowing it, I was sunk…Apparently they’re under investigation for fraud and CC companies have the company name on alert, because it’s happened to so many people. We need to contact the CC company asap to block any other withdrawals. (Hubby’s doing this!!) I’ve repeatedly tried to call the company today and apparently they intentionally are very hard to get ahold of, so that they can send you an order next month, regardless if you order it. I feel like such a fool!! Some people have gotten their CC companies to reverse the charges. I guess it depends which CC company and what your insurance is. I thought just paying the shipping was such a good deal…obviously too good to be true. Apparently they also have different company names, so if your CC company blocks one name, they just use another. Many people have just gotten brand new cards to get out of the loop and their line of sight completely!! This has to be illegal – you’d at least think it was…

If you’ve already fallen victim to his scam, I’m so so sorry 😦 😦 😦 I don’t know how people like this can even live with themselves. Whether you own the frickin’ company or just work for them. I guess all that I can say is one word: KARMA or (with a few more fun words) MORE PRECISELY, KARMA’S A BITCH!! YOURS IS COMING TRU BELLEZA!!!

The Assault!!

Zing! lightening strikes, from my ear down my jaw!

Zap! did someone just stab me with an ice-pick??

Sizzle! how did that hot iron appear on my face?

Jab! this time did someone jab me with a burning stick?

Some days it’s so exhausting,

You just want to curl into a ball!

Rocking back and forth in fetal position.

This damn pain makes me feel so small…

They don’t truly understand.

What the pain is really like.

They say, “oh, I know how you feel”

Right! Go take a f…ing hike!

This disease takes over your life,

While the meds take over your brain.

They’re called, “stupid pills” for a reason!

I think I may be going insane!!

No, you can’t fix me.

All I ask for is patience and space.

You will never truly understand what it’s like,

Living with TN assaulting my face!!

JKC

To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) ) to their “Health topic list.”

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

The Spirit Scribe

I challenge myself to write 365 posts in 2016to heal Body, Mind & Spirit. Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Tag Archives: #meditech

On Nights Like This

Until He’s Not

So So Pukey

Floating On A Cloud

My Two Devoted Readers

Never Be Apart

Silent Wishes

To Publish??

Warning, Internet Scam!!

The Assault!!