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How Awful It Used To Be

May 11, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Unsure of her final decision

Roiling inside over her choice

Wishing for more time to ruminate

Tired of being stripped of her voice

The time to act was now

She knew she could wait no longer

He was always asking for more time

She just wanted to feel stronger

She remembers a time, not so long ago

When she was self-assured wherever she went

She walked with her head held high

She felt worthy, capable and confident

How’d she let him suck her dry

How’d she become full of shame and fear

He raped her of her self-worth

He was controlling and abusive over the years

Why did she stay so long

Walking away was the hardest thing to do

He had her wrapped around his finger

And she melted when he said, “I love you”

It took so much to finally turn her back

She was determined to see it through

Nothing he said would change her mind

Would he really do what he’d threatened to

She locked the door and double checked

Remembering, “Girl, if you leave, I’ll kill you…”

“Mommy, why are you crying?” Her 3 year old asks

“Just happy baby. We’re finally safe here.”

She leads her to the shelter’s games room.

“Just one game, then it’s time to sleep dear.”

She’s certain she’ll see it through this time.

He won’t win her back again, just you wait and see

With her hand on her belly she smiles

This one will never have to know, how awful it used to be

JKC

To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) to sign a petition to have the World Health Organization (WHO) add Trigeminal Neuralgia (TN) to their “Health topic list.”

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

With A Hitch In Her Breath

May 9, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

With a hitch in her breath

She begins her retreat

Her spirit heavy

Dragging her feet

With a hitch in her breath

Determined to be done

She walks away

Trying hard not to run

With a hitch in her breath

Not knowing where to start

Unsure of her worth

With a crack down her heart

With a hitch in her breath

She’ll hold her head high

Knowing she must come first

Finally understanding why

With a hitch in her breath

She’ll figure it out

It may take some time

But she has no doubts

With a hitch in her breath

She looks up at the sky

Finds a smile on her face

She’s discovered her why…

JKC

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

In The Blink Of An Eye

May 8, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

In the blink of an eye

Nature steps in

Breaths fire in our face

Determined to win

In the blink of an eye

You’re told to run

You must leave now

Each and everyone

In the blink of an eye

Grab what you can

And do so fast

There is no time to plan

In the blink of an eye

The sky goes black

The smoke takes the reins

And begins the attack

In the blink of an eye

The flames consume

Destruction ensues

One must never assume

In the blink of an eye

Feeling displaced and lost

Thousands lose their homes

Oh, what a steep cost

In the blink of an eye

The masses unite

People stand up

Ready to fight

In the blink of an eye

We will rebuild

Prepared to persevere

Determined and skilled

In the blink of an eye

We open our hearts

Love withstands

Donations off the charts

In the blink of an eye

Despite devastating loss

We’re standing together

Showing who’s boss

In the blink of an eye

It’s not over yet

We’ll do what we can

We’ll never forget

What can happen, in the blink of an eye

JKC

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Who’s Who??

May 7, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Swiftly changing thoughts

Send her drifting

From emotion to emotion

None uplifting

Her spirits melancholy

Fixed to him

Forever empty

Forever dim

Her own wishes forgotten

His heart carrying hers

Through his dismal existence

It never reassures

Stolen memories

Of a better place

Yanked from her heart

Leaving her displaced

Distant laughter

Echoes softly

Gently reminding her

Of memories so costly

Craving kindness

She rips them in two

With half a heart

She finally knows who’s who

JKC

My Little Man

May 6, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

My little man is 6!!

It can’t be true!

My baby boy is actually 6 years old?

I hardly believe it too!

Wasn’t I pregnant just last month?

It’s so strange and surreal!

I feel like he was just born yesterday;

I’m not sure how to feel!

It surprised us so much,

To be blessed with a boy.

We didn’t expect another,

Yet he is our joy!

He makes me smile🙂

He makes me laugh😅

And like most other boys,

He hates to have a bath!!

I love him so,

My little man!

No one can possibly feel such love,

In the way I can!

Happy birthday sweet boy!

Now your six!

You’re perfect the way you are,

There’s nothing to fix.

I love you so,

Oh yes I do!

Hope you had an awesome day

And enjoy your party tomorrow too!!

JKC
To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) to sign a petition to have the World Health Organization (WHO) add Trigeminal Neuralgia (TN) to their “Health topic list.”

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

On Nights Like This

May 5, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Sleep is fleeting

My brain won’t let go

Exhaustion sets in

My transient thoughts flow

On nights like this

The battle is lost

My face is aching

The sheets are all tossed

I should get up

I should just give in

On nights such as this

I cannot win

Yet here I lie

In this muddled mess

With these muddled thoughts

In muddled distress

JKC

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Until He’s Not

His entangled thoughts burn with anger.

The smell of his rage is overpowering!

What move to make ?

He sits simmering and glowering.

Why such animalistic aggression?

How did it shift so fast?

When feeling mocked and ridiculed,

Hiding his anger couldn’t last!

She adores him so, only sees the good!

He convinces himself something’s behind her motives.

Yet she doesn’t know he’s plotting,

While she sits quietly with her votives.

He’s ready to burst with rage!

She’s calmly leaning back, looking up at the skies.

She doesn’t know what he’s capable of.

Will it require her to say her goodbyes?

Underestimating how his aggression pushes him,

She bows out slowly, and turns to leave,

With a sudden jump after her,

She feels him grab her sleeve!

Did I forget something, so naive and trusting,

Unprepared for his fist and the push onto her back!

He yanks her up, smirks at her tears.

He punches her, she feels something crack!

Through tears, snot and blood, she tries to run,

He grabs her hair and drags her across the room!

She screams for help, then spots the wrench,

She whips it across the face of her handsome groom,

With her makeshift weapon she hits his eye!

She be-lines it for the door,

Opens it, slams it, doesn’t look back!

She runs out screaming, her heart in horror!

He almost grabs her again,

But doors open up and people step out.

Her heart has shattered,

She thought she knew, without a doubt…

A week goes by, she smells her flowers.

They make her smile,

He’s sent so many!

She’s in denial..,

He’s said he’s sorry so many times,

She starts to believe it was all a big mistake.

It was an accident, he was out of control!

Yet everyone can see that he’s fake!!

But, she takes him back,

She loves him so!

He loves her too,

He’ll never let her go!

He had a bad day,

He’s feeling mad.

Today it’s just a backhand,

It’s not so bad…

The cycle begins,

He’s all she’s got.

He’s oh so sorry,

Until he’s not…

JKC

So So Pukey

May 3, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

I’m just feeling like hell suddenly. I think I ate something off. It’s just awful! My tummy is just crampy and gurgling and off. It’s bad. It’s way more than just nausea. I truly feel like I’m about to be sick. Ug… I was going to write another poem tonight, but not anymore! Nope! Now, this is pretty much all you’ll be getting, because this is all I’m doing. Sorry folks, but I gotta go puke and lie down…blech!!

Floating On A Cloud

May 2, 2016Uncategorized# 21 day fix, # atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #acute pain, #affiliate marketing, #beachbody, #Beaumont AB, #cannabidiol, #cannabinoids, #cannabis, #challenge groups, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #get in shape, #health and fitness, #lasertherapy, #los weight, #mairrage, #marihuana, #marijuana, #medication, #medicinal marihuana, #medicinal marijuana, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #side effcts, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #vaping, #vaporisor, #vapping, #wealthy affiliate, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

Floating on a cloud

My brain sounds too damn loud

Can’t turn it off

Tired like a sloth

Floating on a cloud

Just blend in with the crowd

Most people won’t know

My face is about to blow

Floating on a cloud

Think they notice I’m wearing a shroud

As lightning strikes my face

I have to get out of this place

Floating on a cloud

Why am I so damn proud

I didn’t have to go

I just hate to miss a show

JKC

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

Evil Lurks

May 2, 2016Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # laser therapy, # shakeology, #clinical depression, #dependency, #lasertherapy, #medication, #medicinal marijuana, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain sensitization, #yayme, #yoga for pain relief, beautiful #painJenn

She smiles demurely,

Yet hidden sinister thoughts abound!

With a polite nod,

She imagines throwing you to the ground!

Her insides simmer,

Overflowing with darkness and hate.

She quietly chuckles,

Engaging in twisted thoughts of your fate.

Her little wink,

Carrying on the pretence of kindness.

A peck on the cheek,

While imagining shaking you ’till your mindless.

How did she become so cruel?

Consumed by malevolent thoughts and wishes?

Beware of her solicitous facade,

Because evil lurks behind her kisses…

JKC

To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) to their “Health topic list.”

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”

The Spirit Scribe

I challenge myself to write 365 posts in 2016to heal Body, Mind & Spirit. Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Category Archives: Uncategorized

How Awful It Used To Be

With A Hitch In Her Breath

In The Blink Of An Eye

Who’s Who??

My Little Man

On Nights Like This

Until He’s Not

So So Pukey

Floating On A Cloud

Evil Lurks