I had a really nice visit with my best friend since grade school. We met for lunch at Milestones. It was so nice to see her! She gave me four full garbage bags of clothing for my son!! It couldn’t have come at a better time! He’s just grown a lot and most of his pants are at that stage where they start to look funny, because they’re too short. So thank you so much Jo! You are a blessing in my life and I am super honoured to have you as a friend!!

I wonder if I need to change the way I write or what I write about. I’m not getting a whole lot of readers these days. I’m pretty much just using this as a journal. Rattling off what I did that day, how I’m feeling or what my kids are or aren’t doing. Who really wants to read that?? I’m not trying to be negative and down on myself or anything, but I really have no audience. (Other than a couple faithful readers, like my mom and dad and best friend, Jo). Im just trying to be a realist about it and realistically, I have practically no readers!!  I’m basically writing to myself. Is it weird?! When I first started I had quite a few readers everyday. I mean not thousands or anything, but at least it was more than three. I’m just not sure people really want to hear how my day went, how I’m feeling, bla bla bla. I enjoy the writing that I’ve been doing, but I need to decide if I’m writing for myself or if I’m trying to build an actual name for myself, to get people to “follow” or “subscribe” or whatever it’s called. I mean every now and then I write about certain facts about chronic pain or TN specifically, but other than that it’s just me and my rambling. I don’t have specific topics or anything that people could search to find my writing. So, that leaves the biggest question…Why am I doing this? I originally began because I was so sick and depressed and I was pretty close to rock bottom and I knew that I needed to do something to get out of the dark place I was living in. For those who’ve been reading my posts all along, it’s probably obvious to see the change in the tone of my writing. When I was depressed it was very negative, low, sad, just down; I was clearly depressed. It wasn’t an overnight change in me, it was gradual, which is reflected in my writing. People no longer look at me with pity or tell me that my posts are too sad to read, because they make them cry. So I originally wanted to write about my life with TN, living with severe chronic pain and an invisible illness. What emerges was a very depressed and struggling person. I moved through those struggles and am still writing about nothing or whatever is on my mind. I don’t know. What I’m trying to say is, do you (all three of you) think I should be writing about certain specific topics? Searchable topics or information?? I’m just thinking about if I truly want to write for others to read and enjoy, should I change how I’ve been doing my blog?? 
To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) to sign a petition to have the World Health Organization (WHO) add Trigeminal Neuralgia (TN) to their “Health topic list.”
“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”