Feeling awful today. Not just due to my my face though, due to my tummy. Blech! We went to Costco this afternoon. While there I was fine, but on the way home I started feeling horrible. Consequently, my day was pretty uneventful. Once we got home I walked half a block or so with my little man, to hatch his 10K Pokemon-Egg (priorities right…his happiness is a priority to me!). It was just the right distance to hatch it!  Then I tried to be useful, but my stomach was just so awful. Although I felt like I was on the verge of getting sick, even with an awful lump at the back of my throat, I never did throw up, thank goodness!  However, I did lie down for a bit and I barely ate and I’m going to bed early for once!! 

Wow! Who wants to read about me being on the verge of vomiting?!  Here I’ve been writing about trying to get my blog published and I’m talking about vomiting!! So so classy Jenn! (Hee Hee No wonder I’ll need an editor!) That’s actually one of the things I’m worrying about, editing (well, actually, money is my biggest concern, but that’s a whole different thing!)  I know that I need to, at the bare minimum, have someone read through this and find all of the spelling errors, typos and grammatical mistakes. However, the editing that I don’t want is one where, my “voice” changes – you know, the spirit of my writing (whether I’m severely depressed, happy or talking about puke!!) is altered and no longer me. I want it to be me….I do wonder…who in the world would want to read about my life?? Why would someone want to pay to read this? I’m not so special. Is this a ridiculous idea?? I can’t believe that I already talked to someone on the phone about this!! Researched it!  How the hell am I going to pay for this??  I really really want to do this!! That’s the best company in Canada! The highest reviews!! Ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!! What am I going to do??? (And that is the wondering inside my brain, right now. A ridiculous loop of not trusting my gut, doubting myself, and worrying when it’s the one thing I want to do,  more than anything in the world, more than anything I’ve ever done in my whole life!! (Other than my kids, of course.). Wow! I need to talk to someone about this! But who? And why does it always come down to money??? (See, this is where I feel sorry for myself…sorry for that😪)

I feel like I have to shake my head. Wake myself up and out of a trance. And once I do, I’m now thinking,  “Shit! I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to write about what’s so deep inside my heart and head…”

To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) to sign a petition to have the World Health Organization (WHO) add Trigeminal Neuralgia (TN) to their “Health topic list.”

“Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!”