Today’s our last day at my parent’s lake house. Our time here sure went by quickly! I must admit that I’m feeling really really exhausted! The good thing is that my son and I have been getting to bed earlier (especially him) and waking up earlier. His schedule is just as messed up as mine is, but I told him that we have to start correcting that on our visit here. He starts grade one (my baby!!) in a couple of weeks and he will be getting up super early, compared to what he’s used to. Over the next couple of weeks, I have to gradually get him to bed earlier and earlier, so that he’s able to wake up earlier. I can hardly believe he’s starting school. He’s very much the “baby” of the family. Especially since he’s so much younger than our girls, their ages have quite the gap – he’s 6 and our girls are both about to have birthdays making them 14 and 19. 19…huh! That’s really hard to believe! I’ve always said that my birthdays don’t really make me feel like I’m getting old, it’s my oldest daughter’s birthday that affects me that way. And on Friday, she’ll be 19!! She seems to be lost in limbo right now. No job, not going to school, no idea what she wants to do/be “when she grows up”! It’s been so nice to see her on this trip. Up and out of bed before noon or one in the afternoon, interacting (without {much} conflict) with her sister, playing around in the water. At home, we joke that she’s a vampire! She is so pale, she sleeps forever, she’s usually sullen, she doesn’t like the curtains being opened to let the sun shine in. Yup, she’s my little vampire! She’s been so much happier here. She seems a bit lighter…or, well it’s hard to explain. It’s just that she’s happy and smiling and playing games and laughing and joking. I mean, I guess she does these things at home, but there always seems to be some kind of darkness, not quite depression, you just get a very bla sensation from her, if that makes any sense. There’s a bit of unhappiness or loneliness or maybe she’s despondent or dispirited…I can’t quite put my finger on it, but I just get the sad sense that she’s unhappy. It hurts my heart! She’s so much better here! It’s like, “oh, there you are…where’ve you been??” I know that if she would find something to do, a job (even if it’s working at McDonalds for Pete’s sake), bloody volunteering, babysitting, going for walks, exercising…just something. She just gets herself in this downwards spiral, to the point where she just seems to cafe about next to nothing! I have to get her out applying for jobs right away once we’re home to keep her going and moving ahead and maybe with some direction in her life, before she falls back into that pit. How in the world did I start talking about this?? She’s not going to be happy with me at all!! It’s not like I mean to “gossip and talk about” my daughter in a negative way, I love her with all of my heart and soul. If anything that’s why I’m talking about it, because it hurts my heart to see her the way she is. Excuse the typos if their are any that have been missed by spell check, I’m so exhausted that I’m literally falling asleep (again) while I write this. Last night I actually fell asleep with the iPad on my face while writing my post. I’m almost there again tonight. So, having said that, I think I’m just going to got to bed. I’m sure I could keep on writing, but tomorrow will be a looooong  day again, and, obviously, my body is trying to tell me something. Something like, “peel your damn iPad off your face and go to sleep!!” Okay, it just happened again, I’m going to bed now. Night all❌😘❌‼️

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