I’m starting to, finally, feel more like myself! Yay! I’m still feeling more tired than generally, but not as much. The past few days, if I was sitting in any one place for too long, I’d find it difficult to keep my eyes open! Then I’d do that thing where you nod off a bit, then jerk awake. I feel like this has kept me from going over how my trip went. All you got was, “I’m so tired”,”I’m just exhausted”, “I’m going to bed”…etc etc! 

One of the big lessons that I’ve learned and relearned is that I must take care of myself first (I don’t mean in a selfish, I’m most important and do things only for myself, way!!) And self-care (especially for women caregivers – I’m not saying some men don’t do this, but it is absolutely more common with women!) is often easier said than done. Personally, I’ve always excelled at putting others needs before my own. Then in the end I find myself completely done in. I don’t finish things or even start things that I know I need to do and sometimes it’s just things around the house (and technically these things are for everyone, not just me!). More often, it’s things like drawing or painting, writing my blog, or just writing in general. I’ve needed to do my nails for weeks, but it just doesn’t get completed. It’s really frustrating. I used to say, and this was from like college/university years, that if my nails are a mess, then I haven’t been taking any time for my self. I just know that, when I’m happy and content, after doing a “me” thing, everyone else is also happy. But if I’m feeling scattered and rushed and uncomfortable, those feelings also translate into my world. Probably due, in part, to the law of attraction. I’m attracting “like”emotions back to me. So my point is. I need to put some of my needs first. Happy mom = Happy family 

I do really believe in the law of attraction. I think I just can’t overpower our money issues with the law of attraction, because my husband is always thinking about money, complaining about money, worrying about money, stressed because of money; I’m not even exaggerating! He is obsessed with money and our lack thereof…So when I’m attempting to use the law of attraction to attract money and prosperity to us our two energies probably meet and cancel each other’s out. Actually, his energy is probably more powerful than mine. He just sees that things are bad, that they’re always bad and always will be!!! Because, regardless of income, we are always short on money. I have to work on hiring my wavelength in order to overpower his negative energy. Positive energy far out weighs negative energy, I’ve read. So I have to crank out oodles of positivity!!  You may turn around and call me “new age”or like a “hippy-dippy”, however I completely believe in the law of attraction and the power of our minds. It just feels like I’m going against a brick wall. If my hubby would only watch The Secret, maybe he’d believe in it a bit more. There is research and evidence on this stuff. It’s not just mumbo-jumbo, it’s a Law of Nature!!! It does work. And it works exactly. I need to find a way to open his eyes to this truth and then use the law of attraction to our advantage!! We really need to come together on this one!!  Huh.  I just noticed that I t’s really late! I must head to bed now!! I’m going to keep positive, right now I’m positively tired!! LOL 

 1:29 am…blech!!!! Zzzzzzz❗️

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