I don’t even know if anyone reads this anymore…hmmm. Does that bug me? Yes, of course!! Has it become same old same old?? Do I just bitch about how I’m feeling, with a poem thrown in here and there? I feel like it’s sort of like a public journal. Anyone can read it, if they want, but nobody really does anyway. I don’t intend to be all negative and full of complaints all the time. I also need to check out my settings, because it’s supposed to post everyday on Facebook, but I don’t think it is. I know I had some readers when it was on Facebook everyday. I’m going to turn the automatic post off and then manually post it on Facebook like I used to. Also, I’m determined to be more positive and write with more intention (for the most part…sometimes it just flows out without a whole lot of forethought. Generally, on the days that it just flows from within, those aren’t complaining days.)

I finished my vision board today!! I have been watching videos on YouTube as I’ve been making my vision board and some of the stories are crazy amazing!! There are so many people who are using the Law Of Attraction to manifest positive things into their lives. I’ve been wanting to make a vision board and begin using the Law Of Attraction for myself for some time now. My hubby doesn’t believe in any of this!! He thinks that it’s garbage, because “I’m going to be a realist. If it works it’s just by extreme luck…” So, I feel like I have to use my positive energy to, not only change my personal viewpoint regarding my life, but I have to be extra powerful to overcome his negative and doubting viewpoint. He has not had an easy life and he basically thinks that we’ll never have enough money, we’ll never be able to buy a bigger house, we’ll never travel the world, we’ll never (fill in the blank with a negative thought)!! He pretty much believes that life will always be a struggle and hard. Oh, and he believes that he’s going to die young. He says this ALL the time!! I keep telling him that, if these are his beliefs, this will always be he way it is. If you believe that our thoughts create our world, well things will never shift or change, which will just confirm, to him, that he’s absolutely correct. So, ARGH!!!!! I try to tell him that of course nothing will change if that’s what you believe everything will come to pass. I feel like I have to work not just with God and the universe to bring about what I want to manifest in my life, but I have to believe deep within my heart and soul. I have to visualize like crazy to create the life I want for us. I have double the work, I have to be powerful enough to zap his beliefs and negativity down, while still working with the universe to shift things for us. However, I need things to change and I firmly believe that they can and will! I am writing a book and getting it published. I am going to have enough money for a good life with less of a struggle living cheque to cheque. I am going to get a bigger house (we have SO outgrown our house). I am going to get healthy, body, mind, spirit and soul!! There are many many more things, but these are the big four important things!! Now I’m off to bed!!

Oh, here’s a photo of my vision board (it may look like it’s all over the place, but it’s perfect for me and my life plan and the big four, health, home, finances, passion!!):

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