I just don’t want to say goodbye 

Just thinking about it makes me cry

The order’s reversed, the times all wrong

I still think of you when I hear that song

“It’s just not fair,” I cried to God

“I’ll trade his place,” I yelled with a nod

Yet all was quiet, too quiet you see

You still weren’t back down here with me

“He can’t be gone” “he’s just a boy”

“He was filled with life, with love, with joy”

It’s still too quiet without you here

This silence fills my heart with fear

It’s pushing me to say goodbye 

I’m not sure I can, I don’t want to try 

Your face, your laugh it’s still so strong 

I sit on your bed and pretend you’re not gone

If I close my eyes and breath in deep

I can still kiss your forehead and watch you sleep

You’re still my baby, you’ll always be

That will never ever change for me 

The words remain as a lump in my throat 

Remaining quiet is what keeps me afloat 

Losing a child is just so wrong

I still think of you when I hear that song

Just thinking about it makes me cry

I just don’t want to say goodbye…

JKC 

This is dedicated to my cousin Barbra Chambers, on a very difficult anniversary, as well as my uncle and aunt Dode and Roy Chambers, because it’s there everyday… My heart aches for all of you. 

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