Hi all. I had a long, rough night, again! I fell asleep fairy quickly last night, but woke up around 4:30 – 5:00 and couldn’t for the life of me fall back asleep. I had one of those dry, tickle in your throat, type coughs that just won’t go away. I’d just start to drift off and then the coughing would start again. That’s a strange expression, “for the life of me.” I think that’s the first time I’ve ever used it in a sentence, or at all. Weird. I’m super sleepy right now. I can’t go to bed late again tonight. I’m just worn out. 

Why do I take forever to do everything? Like everything!! I mean I drive myself crazy!! (And probably drive my my whole family crazy too!) I feel like I always run out of time. I don’t get things done. I start things and don’t finish them. Even at night, when I’m tired and go to get ready for bed. It doesn’t seem to matter if  I feel ready to just collapse, by the time I brush my teeth, wash my face, take my meds, etc., it just seems to take me forever! It’s as if everything I do is in super slow-motion. I know it’s probably a combination of depression, pain and my medication. I’m just tired of the stunted day to day pace of my life. I have no motivation to do anything. To function. I have to drag my butt to get anything done. I’m just filled to the brim with the bla’s. I need to care again. About my life. About something. To find a purpose again. I really really hope the laser therapy next week helps with the pain, because I need a nudge in the right direction. A little push toward the positive side of life…

Wow!  Am I ever having a low, negative week!  Not much fun reading these posts all week. Just mumbled, complaints, whines and a whole lot of bla! So sorry. I’m just not great this week, at all, obviously. I’m going to bed right away. None of this staying up crazy late stuff tonight! I’m so tired that I can hardly keep my eyes open right now. 😴😴😴

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