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The End Of Dance For The Year!!!

May 31, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

The final dance show of the year is tonight! 👯The last competition, the “grand championships” that was scheduled for late June has been cancelled. Apparently they didn’t have enough dance studios register for the championship and, well, I’m rather happy about it! No more extra biweekly practices until June! Hip hip hooray!! This gives my daughter and her limo company (aka my hubby and I) some down time. My daughter dances five days a week and sometimes more than once a day. She really enjoys dancing, but it tends to take over her life. I think she’s also relieved she’ll no longer, have to rush around, get her hair done, inhale her supper, make sure she has the right dance shoes, tights, etc. It’s just a lot and when you’re in grade 7, you want some time for yourself and to be with your friends, to just be a kid! Also, the dates would have been a real pain! My daughter leaves for her school trip to Quebec, Montreal and Ottawa on the 22 of June and the finals for dance were supposed to be on June 20 & 21. So, yes, that would have been a pain in the butt, instead of packing and getting ready for her trip, we would have been driving to Red Deer for dance. I am really happy that isn’t going to be happening now! So, we go to the final “performing showcase” tonight (she is already there, makeup and hair done because the dress rehearsal is all afternoon and the show is this evening.) I do love watching her dance, not just her actually, there are some amazing dancers and I enjoy watching them all. However, yes, after tonight she is done for the year and I am quite relieved, definitely ready for it!! I don’t know what next year will bring with dance. I know she wants to be given the opportunity to attend competitions and she isn’t offered that with her current dance school. (Well, other than hip hop, but that was due to the new teacher not knowing how this dance studio chooses the kids who compete; a whole other conversation I’m not getting into right now!!) I told my daughter that we’re going to wait until she receives her “report card” before making any decisions about next year. She’s says that she’d like to go to a different studio, where the parents can decide whether or not to register as a recreational dancer or a competitive one. The problem is that changing studios would mean having to drive her to dance in Edmonton, which would be a real pain in the butt! However, I see her confidence slipping away, in the way she carries herself, her expression, her posture and, well, I just see it. This hurts my heart so so much!! But, no decisions have to be made right away. Once she gets her report card and we see what she has been recommended to take next year, we will have to look at the pros and cons and make some decisions!! Until then, I just need to not worry about it. I just want her to be happy. To feel appreciated by her teachers, not rejected by them; which is how she feels…🙍🏼

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Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

May I Have Horns For The Day?

May 29, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

May I have horns for the day?

Permission to blow the pleasantries away

No worries about right or wrong

Be free to sing my private song

Forget about those who judge and talk

Do what I want and let them gawk

Dance and sing and yell out loud

I don’t have to please anyone in the crowd

May I have horns for the day?

If I enjoy it too much, they may just stay…

JKC

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

MIA Poem

May 28, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

I just had another of those fun moments when I’d like to toss my iPad out the window then run outside with a sledgehammer pound the crap out of it! The poem that I was just reading through is suddenly MIA…poof! It is gone! I can’t find it and have no idea why or how or where…so so frustrating. I don’t think I’ll have a long post today. I need to do my lights still and it’s already 9:00. I have to do them tonight and I can’t go to bed late tonight. Or rather, I won’t go to bed late. Pain comes far too easily and I may not know all of the things that trigger my pain, but lack of sleep is one thing I do know makes it worse. So, I apologize for this short post. I still can’t find the poem I wrote earlier and it’s bothering me…argh!

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

With His Heart In His Hands

May 27, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

She says the words he yearns to hear

He lets them caress away his fear

He wants to believe there’s been no change

But he senses a hint of something strange

In the way she smiles and casts her eyes

The tilt of her head betrays her lies

His doubt holds him down with regret

Can she possibly forgive and forget

He’ll cling to promises from time past

With his heart in his hands holding fast

JKC

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

First It’s The Dollar Tree, Then It’s The World!!!

May 26, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

Today I spent almost 2 hours in “The Dollar Tree” store. I know that’s a bit crazy, but it’s true. I was just walking through each isle, looking at all of the “great deals” that would encourage me to buy things that I don’t need and wasn’t even looking for! You know what I mean? You’re walking through the store and something catches your eye. You check it out and you’re flabbergasted by the price. You’re like”OMG! I just can’t believe how cheap that is!! What a great deal. I’ll never find it at that cost again! I can’t pass by this deal! Actually, I better buy a couple while I can!!” Then, as you leave the store where everything costs only $1.25 (yes, everything – a great deal, right?!) you find yourself wondering how you could possibly end up spending $40!! Well, at least I was out of the house right?! That’s got to be worth something! I was forced to crawl out of my cave because my husband forgot his work ID Pass at home. He needs it to enter the restricted areas. He can get a temporary pass for the day, but it doesn’t look very good when one of the bosses doesn’t have his pass. Also, he has a very high clearance level that may not be covered with a temporary pass. So, my point is that he called me from work to ask me if I’d mind bring it to him and that’s what forced me to get moving today. It’s pretty sad when you feel like you had a productive day because you spent a chunk of your afternoon in a dollar store…baby steps right?? First it’s The Dollar Tree, then it’s the world!!!!

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

A Fresh Start

May 25, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

A day with a little bit more sun

A day where a few more smiles are won

A lot less tears

Not quite as many fears

No longer asking why

Or wondering if you’ll say goodbye

Instead of everything falling apart

An end has turned into a fresh start…

JKC

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Dance + Stress = Fun???

May 24, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

Dance dance dance! 👯 Today was not much better than yesterday. It was my youngest daughter’s year end dance show today. She had to be picked up at 6:30AM, hair & makeup ready to go. Our night was extremely late because of last nights fiasco…with the late start of the party our oldest had to go to and the stressful situation regarding her boyfriend’s grad reception, well, I couldn’t fall asleep. Even though I knew that my alarm was going to be going off soon. So I finally fell asleep at 4:00AM, then I had to get my daughter ready for dance, 2 hours later, at 6:00AM!! Went back to sleep after our friends picked her up for us (they have to be at the Jubilee super early, because the dress rehearsal is in the morning and the show is in the afternoon). I was able to sleep for a few more hours, then showered and went to the show, with my super sad oldest daughter 🙇🏼, my little man 👦🏼, my hubby 👱🏻and my parents 👵🏼&👴🏼! When we were standing in the lobby, before the show even started, my little man asked his big sister (my oldest) to pick him up, because his tummy didn’t feel well. She picked him up and seconds later, he threw-up all over the place (in the carpeted area of the Jubilee). So, long story short, we brought him into the show. He felt sick again after only a few of the dance numbers, so my daughter and I pushed our way out of our row and into the isle (interrupting everyone). We ran him to the bathroom, then I got a plastic cup from the concession people, in case he still felt sick. He proceeded to throw-up into the cup during a few dance numbers. Finally, my hubby just took him back to the lobby. Then, during intermission, we decided he should take our sick little man home. This is just an amazing adventure of a weekend for us…yep! 💆🏼

Oh, before I hit the hay, (what a strange expression) my lovely youngest daughter danced👯 beautifully in all five of her dances! Bravo my little-one❌😘❌‼️

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

🐻RARW🐻

Today was an awful day. Awful awful awful… It started good. It was happy in our house. I was getting ready for my laser appointment, my girls were talking about the best way to make curls last and hold. My oldest daughter was hopping into the shower as I was running out the door to make my appointment. She was getting ready to go to her boyfriend’s grad this evening. He is at a different school then her. They decided pretty last minute about her attending, they weren’t dating when the tickets went on sale. We spent the past few days finding her a dress (she wanted to save her dress for her grad). She picked nail polish, how to do her hair, etc. She was supposed to be picked up by his mom (who lives in town) and they were supposed to be meeting him & his dad (& step mother, brother). My youngest daughter is amazingly talented when it comes to hair styling. She did a practice hair style the day before. So, while I was at my appointment, they did her makeup and then her hair (which was incredible!!), but it took a very long time. When I got home they were just finishing her hair. She was beautiful, excited and glowing! She got her bag ready, for going to the after party, “normal” clothes, etc. Then she got her dress on. The neighbours all wanted to see her “final look”, so she showed everyone. Then I took a bunch of photos of her. Then we came back home to make sure she had all she needed, because his mom was supposed to be coming right away. We were talking and waiting for his mom when my daughter’s boyfriend texted her saying that his mom didn’t have a spare ticket for her anymore!!!! Yes, that’s right, you heard me, there was no longer a ticket for her!!!!!!😱😱😱 Apparently his mom told him that she decided to use the ticket for his stepdad. Just like that!!! Can you even believe it! My baby at the door, dressed to the nines, waiting to be picked up for grad – and through a f-ing text his mom decides, at the last possible second, that his stepdad should come to the grad, not his girlfriend. But it’s okay because “she’ll do whatever it takes to make sure she (my daughter) gets to the after party!!” Because, yes, that is what you spend 5 hours getting dressed up for, a bloody party!!! This afternoon, around 12:00, he said that his mom told him that she’ll pick her (my daughter) up at about 5:00, then at about 5:15, his mom decides “nope!!!” REALLY????? Wtf??? So, for anyone who’s watched those teen movies where the girl is waiting for the prom date and he never shows…well, I just watched my daughter endure that and it was AWFUL! My heart was aching for her and my blood was boiling! I was so so angry at this woman. I mean who the hell does that?? I did wonder if he was making that up, because he got cold feet or something, but apparently no. That is just the way she is! This is to be expected… Normal behaviour for his mom! One of the reasons he chose to move in with his dad…I’m still a bit speechless about the whole thing! I know it may not seem like it, but wow! Wow! I know he was embarrassed and shamed and felt super bad. He apologized a lot, but, that doesn’t take the sting away, or make it better… I just can’t imagine doing that to a young girl! (Not to mention, your own son…). There’s more to say, but I’m going to stop before I let the mad take over…the 🐻Momma Bear🐻is rearing up🐻RARW🐻

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Sunny Days

May 22, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

A crazy, lazy day. I’m feeling like I did and accomplished nothing today. For some reason I’ve had a tough week. I feel like a lump. Well, a lump with a very long “to do” list that rarely gets done. I have all of these intentions, especially at night when I finally lie down and find some quiet time. I think of all of the things I should be doing, daily, to gradually work towards the land of the living. I know I’ve been depressed and the winter months never help that. Now that it is nice outside it lifts my mood a bit. To go out in the sunshine. Get some fresh air and some vitamin D. It makes things seem more possible. Reminds me that there is life outside of my house. I’ve turned into such a hermit over the past couple of years. Doing less and less. So, today was one of those “feel like a lump” days. But, with spring and sun, come joy and health. I can sense it…

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

These Precious Emotions

May 21, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

A downward spiral drags down my soul

Leaving me burdened with beautiful pain

Drowning my fears of fire and coal

Weighed down with sorrow I can’t explain

My heart seeks redemption it can’t know

Drenching me in guilt and shame

My smile falters almost allowing it to show

But these precious emotions are quick to tame

JKC

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

The Spirit Scribe

I challenge myself to write 365 posts in 2016to heal Body, Mind & Spirit. Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

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The End Of Dance For The Year!!!

May I Have Horns For The Day?

MIA Poem

With His Heart In His Hands

First It’s The Dollar Tree, Then It’s The World!!!

A Fresh Start

Dance + Stress = Fun???

🐻RARW🐻

Sunny Days

These Precious Emotions