So,the other day I was talking about what a busy time of year this is for us. Both of our girls have August birthdays (19 & 29th) and, of course, it is back to school time soon. Meaning, party planning and shopping for school supplies. We’re also planning on going out to the lake on Labor Day weekend. Also, I’m trying to figure out where my daughter is going to dance this year (I went into this yesterday!). Many many things are pouring through my mind right now. I need to take a step back and write down all that I have to do and the corresponding deadline. Hopefully I will able to de-stress myself and see the bigger picture. I’m just feeling overwhelmed. We did actually get quite a bit done today, regarding school supplies anyway. We went to Southgate, then Walmart and finally, we went to Costco. So, after all of that, I am just knackered (sorry I probably spelled that wrong!!)

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Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Okay. Now I know that this will come across as a huge surprise, but today I’m feeling really tired. Yep. Here it is folks! Even though I went to bed late, I did get a long sleep, because my little man and I slept in. However, I’m just so so tired!

My younger daughter and I spent some time today looking into a new dance studio. I am just done with her current school and so is my daughter. I’m tired of sending her to a dance school that basically promotes bullying and cliques. It has been gradually picking away at her confidence and self-esteem. We’ve been talking about changing dance schools for sometime now. This is certainly not a new discussion for us. For some time now we’ve questioned why we continue to pay people to hurt our child, to crush her spirit, to convince her that she’s not good enough. I’m just so done with it. I want her to remember that she loves dancing. I want her to have fun and look forward to her classes. I want her to come out of class smiling and happy. She’s a good dancer, maybe not the best, but also not the worst. I want her to be at a school where that doesn’t matter, as all dancers are treated equally and everyone is given the same opportunities to dance and perform. I was once told that a good dance teacher is one who can teach the good and talented kids to dance, but a great dance teacher can teach even the most awkward and uncoordinated kids how to dance well. Lots of venting going on, I know. My point in all of this is that we’re in the process of finding a new dance school in Edmonton. I’m not looking forward to the extra driving, but I believe it’s super important for us to do this now. Recently she has experienced a great deal of rejection and I am so so tired of seeing her face fall and watching as another little knock is notched into her heart. I’m done with people who just get caught up in their own personal bubble, with their own little world and who then make decisions or say things without much concern about other people’s feelings and how much damage their actions may cause. I’m done with bullies!! Just done!! Bye bye bullies!!

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Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

I’m just so so so tired right now. I had a horrible sleep last night! Just bad! I don’t know why I just wasn’t able to sleep. The last time I looked at the clock before I fell asleep was 6:30AM. I’m so so tired I really just need sleep! But, of course, the night I really should sleep well, just happens to be the night before her birthday party…Yep! Tay and her friends are jamming-out to rockband as we speak (12:10am). So, I have my portable air conditioner going.  Anything to drown out the “dying cats” (my younger daughter’s words – lol). Well, she’s 18 now, so I didn’t need to buy booze for her! Nope! I just had to drive her there & pay…sigh. And I was worried about how things would change. But nothing new to report lol!

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Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Eighteen years ago today, I had a beautiful baby girl. She was just perfect. A precious little bundle that simultaneously tugged on my heart and scared the crap out of me!! In that moment (after about 37 gruelling hours of labor) when you are handed your first little baby then sense of responsibility just hits you in the chest, “I am responsible for this little life” “this baby depends on me for everything” “is she really all mine” “how can she be so perfect” “how the hell am I ever going to do this” “what if I fuck it up” “I just can’t stop staring at this perfect little person, I could gaze at her forever” “I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing, but she is mine, MINE! and I will grow fangs and use them on anyone or anything that could possibly hurt her… Ummmm I wonder that includes me””I have no idea how to do this, she can’t really be completely dependent upon me, can she””Oh, God, what if I fuck this up””I can gaze at her for all of my days and come away happy””oh! Look at her perfect little toes and she has long fingers, just like me””what the hell is that black tar-like substance that is slowly oozing out of her butt…nurse…something is wrong with my baby!!!!!” “Awwww…look at the cute little grunty face she’s making while it comes out””you’re sure this is normal right””did I just say someone pooping is adorable” “oh, oh, she’s doing it again…awwww!””I could just hold this babe and gaze at her forever…”  “Isn’t she perfect” “Unconditional love… now I get it” “please Jenn, please Jenn, please Jenn don’t screw this up!!!!”

Willing to wear a happy birthday sticker on her forehead. Willing to spend her 18th birthday with her best friend, her mom, sister & brother. Willing to go to the lounge with her mom and dad & same friend and order her first, legal drink with us. We think we did a good job raising her…I don’t think we screwed up too badly anyway – lol! Learn from the first right…

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY MY PRECIOUS LITTLE BABY-DOLL TAYLOR DAWN GREEN CHAMBERS !!!

I LOVE YOU SO SO VERY MUCH & I KNOW THAT YOU WILL SUCCEED IN ALL THAT YOU DO & I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE YOU.  I THANK GOD FOR YOU EVERY DAY! ❌😘❌😘❌😘❌😘‼️‼️

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Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

PS: writing this made me ball, so I guess I did cry on your birthday!

PSS: Taylor,sadly, (in booming daddy voice) if you live under our roof you still have to follow house rules, do chores etc…lol!!! love you hon😘

Tomorrow my baby will be 18!!!! Holy cow!! I can’t wrap my head around that… I keep thinking about it, how can she be 18?? It’s too crazy for words. My face and head are unbearable today. Just wanted to crawl into a hole all day. Just keep repeating the thought of that number again and again…18?? Seriously? How can that be?? Sorry. That’s all I have today. Feel like hell…

How do you let your baby set sail???

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Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

PS Did I mention that my baby turns 18 tomorrow???

My biggest accomplishment today is getting the dishes done. Yep. That’s it. I have nothing else to show for. That’s my day. Other than that, well nothing! Pretty sad right?? Hmmm… Anything else??  Well, I talked to my mom for a while. A couple of my uncles and aunts are arriving for a visit with my parent’s at their BC house. My mom and dad have been in BC for a long time. I don’t like it when they’re gone so long. I miss them and my kiddos do as well. My oldest daughter and my mom are close too. However, she (& my dad) won’t even be here for my baby’s 18th birthday!😓 That makes me (& her) a little sad. But, my dad’s brothers are in their mid-eighties, so they take every opportunity to see each other. So, anything else I did today…What else? What else? Well… My little man and I looked up “how to’s” to find instructions on how to draw Captain America. My oldest absolutely loves him and anything to do with him, so my youngest wants to draw a picture of him for a gift for her birthday (that sounded much more complicated than it actually is, with all of he he’s and she’s, I just try to not use my kids names on here, although I’m not sure if it actually matters, as for the most part it’s just family and friends who read this!!) I played minecraft again (sigh) and the stickman game. And, now, I’m going to sleep. Looking forward to another full and productive day – lol!!!!!

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Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Huh. I can’t find last nights super short post!! Strange…it was only about 2 sentences long. Basically talked about how all I accomplished was chilie (okay, just as I did yesterday, I think I’m spelling that wrong!). Very very weird…I just noticed when I posted tonight’s that the entry from yesterday isn’t there…huh!

I’m drawing a blank tonight. I’m super tired because I couldn’t fall asleep last night and ended up not getting enough sleep. So I just want to run off to bed and snooze. I’m still not feeling that great. I’ve had a headache all day and still am feeling nauseous- blech! I’m running through too many things in my brain. My oldest daughter’s birthday is in 2 days. I have no idea what we are going to be doing. Her closest girl friends (or friends who age girls?? I don’t know which way to say it) are younger than her, so she doesn’t really have anyone to go to a club or bar or whatever.  We may just go to BP’s lounge or something. Just not sure yet. If we do that I guess our (almost) 13 year old daughter will stay home to babysit our 5 year old son. I know I have to figure it out soon. I’m just running out of time. Her friends are all coming over on Thursday night. Then next weekends is our younger daughter’s 13th birthday. I don’t even know what we’re going to be doing for that. We have to get ready for school to start soon (where did the summer even go??) I also have to figure out dance stuff for her. She really wants to try a different dance school this year. This requires us to drive her farther, as there’s only 1 dance school in our town. It will be a big commitment, for her and us. Big decision to be made! I’m feeling overwhelmed by it all. I guess it’ll have to be one day at a time. However, it’s definitely too late to do anything about it tonight. So I’m just going to go to bed!!

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Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Sick. Sick. Sick!!!

All night long! It’s just bad. Super high fever, my entire body feels like the enemy today. Dizzy. Blacked out, thankfully on the bed, so no head bumps!  Sweating while my teeth are chattering. (They were chattering on their own! Super weird! Like big time chattering. Looked like movie fake chattering-lol! I’ve only gotten up today for bathroom issues (Don’t worry. I’m not supplying the nasty details – lol.) And now I’m going back to bed!! Too dizzy when standing up. 

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Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Today felt very strange. I’m not really sure why. It’s just did. I spent a great deal of my day learning how to (somewhat) play minecraft. I say sort of because I’m certainly not a gamer. Really really not! You could probably say that my hubby is a gamer (maybe, almost). He probably would be much much more a gamer if he had any spare time on his hands (which is in demand). Anyway, my 5 year old son spent a great deal of time attempting to teach me how to play minecraft. He is convinced (after hours of trying to teach me) that he is smarter than me – lol!! And, with regards to minecraft, he certainly is. But, we came to a compromise that we are both the smartest of everyone (his words-lol!!), we are just smarter about different things… Gotta love 5 year old’s thinking right??