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Is It Math Class Or Drawing Class?

October 20, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

Almost half of the people weren’t there last night (at my drawing class), it was very very strange! We worked on sighting and perspective. The sighting works by measuring distance, using your pencil as a tool. I kept getting mixed up with it. I definitely have to practice a lot this week! Also, in talking about perspective, we learned that there are 3 different types, 1st point, 2nd point & 3rd point,… I barely did anything with 3rd point perspective, I was lost enough with 2point perspective! I got confused, he said I was overthinking it and that you figure it out by doing. We were drawing cubes in different places and then, depending upon your perspective, completing all of the sides that you are able to see, ie, actually, physically see. Drawing a kitchen, for example, at eye level, can you see the flat top of a counter or maybe some of the bottom. What are the angles from where you’re standing/sitting as you draw? How does foreshortening appear on the cube depending on eye level? Etc, etc…I found it quite the struggle. I needed a lot of help and this week, I need to practice practice practice!!

To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) to sign a petition to have the World Health Organization (WHO) add Trigeminal Neuralgia (TN) to their “Health
Hopefully once day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Without Further Explanation…

October 18, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

Today is a drawing day. Draw, draw, draw.

So, that means I need to jump back to it and keep going. This will be n my mind though. I find myself worrying about getting my writing finished. I don’t want it to be something that is just a chore. That will turn my writing into a chore, which contradicts the original reason I started this blog. That doesn’t help me much on days when I feel completely blank and have nothing to say. Also, I feel like I can’t keep my eyes open. Last night was strange. I didn’t sleep fully last night. That sounded weird. What I meant was that I would fall asleep, wake up, fall asleep, etc., etc., over and over. Very frustrating. The problem with that kind of abbreviated sleep is that my body doesn’t get the rest and restoration that it needs . So, then I end up waking up feeling exhausted. I just feel like a part of me is sleep-deprived and exhausted, ALL THE TIME!!

I’m super excited about my upcoming getaway. My hubby’s going to Toronto for work training and I’m going to join him there a couple days after he gets there, for 3 nights – 4 full days!!! It’s not like it’s tomorrow or anything, but I am so so looking forward to it! My hubby keeps saying that he’ll be at training all day, so I’ll be on my own during the day. We have the evenings for us though. He’sworried about me getting bored. I have adamantly told him that that’s kind-of the point…4 full days all to myself!!! I don’t have to say anything more to that. Most moms (and dads) will know exactly what I’m talking about without further explanation. Seriously, 4 full days all to myself, enough said…

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Small Blessings

I feel like I blinked and suddenly it’s after 3:00. Time has a way of doing that. Then that long list of what you have to do that day ends up getting cut in half, as you have to revisit your list and prioritize. Generally I’m having a good day if I end up getting even one of the things on the revised list done! It’s like, “Woohoo!! Yay!! Time to celebrate! I think one of the reasons that I don’t get any of the extra things done is because I have a hard time even getting the day to day things finished. So, yes, getting extra things done is quite the accomplishment. That is the Woohoo day.

My hubby bought the new rock band for the play station 4. So we have had a very loud day. I don’t know what it is about that game, but we all have so much fun when we play it. We have the original one and many of the extra songs/games. It is something we all do together as a family. Even if one of us is just sitting and watching/listening, we just enjoy ourselves. Those family moments are to be treasured, as they are most important and easy to take for granted.

So, I am off to enjoy my family. I need to hold onto all of the small blessings. They ad up to a beautiful life!

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Fitbit

October 16, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

Today I refuse to go to bed late! Even if this is super short. I have got to switch my schedule, up too late, sleep late, doing nothing… I got a Fitbit today. It can sinc with my phone, for texts and music and a ton of info about yourself. Heart rate, throughout the day/night, sleep schedule, # of steps and much more. I just have to figure out how to use it! Also, it’s a bit big and clunky, definitely not all that feminine. But, I have heard good things about them and very helpful in showing you your patterns, so, hopefully, you can make positive changes. I really need, I mean I really really need to make some major lifestyle changes!! So I’m hoping that it helps me, even if only a little.

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

His Loving Jail

October 15, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

Running wildly, not enough,

He skillfully creeps after me.

Breathing heavy, can’t contain it

Far louder than it should be!

Fear rolls through me,

Takes control of things,

Yanks my movements,

As if on strings.

Tugged still.

Only escape, my mind,

While in his loving jail,

His touch, so kind…

JKC

(Huh. My mind fascinates and baffles me all at the same time…with what it creates, words unexpected. Don’t ask me about the “deep meaning”. Let it mean whatever it does for you…)

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Mangled…

October 14, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

Too tired today. It felt like a write-off day! I have been zoned out completely. My eyes are red and poofy. I look like a “stoner!” ( as we called the smoking/druggy kids in high school.) So, how things change and shift. I’m now the “stoner.” I know my medication is sedating, that’s why my highest dose is at bed-time. However, I feel the heaviness of the sedatives all day long. And, my stupid feet are still poofed up. The pharmacy went through my meds & possible responses and they said that it isn’t a side-effect related to any of them. If my gabapentin was recently raised there may be concern, but I’ve been on that for a long time at the same dose, since prior to my brain surgery & it’s coming up on two years since the surgery. It’s strange that it still aches & hurts where my incision was, sometimes horribly. So so so weird… But, I’m so used to pain somewhere on my body, that I almost don’t believe myself… some times it’s like this is someone else’s mangled life…

To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me)sign a petition to have the WorldHealth Organization (WHO) add Trigeminal Neuralgia (TN) to their “Health Topic List.

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

That She Tried To hide…

Hmmm…write write write,

What’s on my mind tonight?

We spent the long weekend in Penticton BC.

Because my mother-in-law’s last day is soon to be.

Two days to visit and two to drive,

Just leaves me feeling half-alive.

(I’m sorry it’s probably insensitive to say that,

But, with the pain and exhaustion, that’s just where I’m at!)

We weren’t going to go, but decided we should,

It was the right thing to do, it went (and felt) quite good.

There were ups and downs, it was bitter-sweet,

But it was important to go for our final meet.

She was excited to see us, but broken inside,

A fact she tried so very hard to hide.

She carried such sorrow and shouldered her pain,

Knowing she’d never see us again.

I walked away with those thoughts in my head,

Cradling the words that were left unsaid.

I don’t envy what she is going through,

Never knowing when the end will come for you.

Like waves, the fear seemed to be rolling off of her

Leaving her exposed and feeling so unsure.

A day at a time, we’ll take it from there,

She needed to know that people do care.

I send her my blessings, of faith, hope and love,

She said, “I’ll be with you whenever you smell the scent of Dove…”

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Long Car Day -didn’t upload yesterday!

October 13, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

Long drive today and too too exhausted. Sorry folks. This is about all you get. Penticton was emotionally draining and we have so long to go and I don’t want to use roaming costs to write this. Talk more tomorrow!

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Well, I guess this didn’t upload while in the mountains. Didn’t miss a big post! Lol

A Child’s Words Of Wisdom…

October 11, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

Why can there not be shadows in life?

When I want to sneak-up and say, “surprise!!”

Why can there not be shadows in life?

So I’d see more than sorrow in your eyes.

Why can’t it just be love?

It should at least be life’s first rule!

Why can’t it just be love?

This world’s too sad and cruel.

No maybes, just do!

What’s there to think about?

No maybes, just do!

But how do I wade through my doubt??

Why can’t we just do nothing?

There’s always way too much to do!!!

Why can’t we just do nothing?

So I can spend all my time with you!!

JKC

Why can there not be shadows in life? Straight from the mouth of my five year old son, literally!! Really, the first three lines in each section above are (word-for-word) things that my 5 year old son has said! Kids bring abundance and joy!

So, 👨‍👩‍👧‍👦(my family) + 👩🏼 (me) = abundance and joy

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

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Rewind – Repeat!

October 10, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry#bug bites, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

Long busy day?

Rewind – Repeat

Feels like there’s not enough time?

Rewind – Repeat

Always tired?

Rewind – Repeat

Feeling frustrated and negative?

Rewind – Repeat

Anxious and unsettled in my tummy?

Rewind – Repeat

Wish I could do more…with my kids?

Rewind – Repeat

Wish and wish and wish for more?

Rewind – Repeat

Hope one day I’ll feel better?

Rewind – Repeat

Hope one day I’m myself again?

Rewind – Repeat

Yup…sorry for the negativity!! That’s just where my head is today.

Zzzzzzz…

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

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The Spirit Scribe

I challenge myself to write 365 posts in 2016to heal Body, Mind & Spirit. Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Tag Archives: #pain

Is It Math Class Or Drawing Class?

Without Further Explanation…

Small Blessings

Fitbit

His Loving Jail

Mangled…

That She Tried To hide…

Long Car Day -didn’t upload yesterday!

A Child’s Words Of Wisdom…

Rewind – Repeat!