I had an attack of the pain today. Over and over again. The left side thought it’d make an appearance and try to out-do the right side. Over and over again.  It was a pretty close contest. I’m not even 100% sure which won, but it may have been the left side, which is a first! It’s currently shooting down my cheek and across my jaw. Over and over. It feels like it starts in and around my ear, like someone’s has jabbed an ice-pick into my ear, then they pull it out and hammer it back in, out, in, out, in, over and over again. It’s just one jab after another. It is just awful. I HATE it!! I’ve been trying to act like everything is “okay” all day, but it’s just too damn bad right now. It is so jarring and constant. “Jab! Jab! Jab!” Over and over. I had hoped that the laser would be helping by now. I had so much invested in it. After all I read about it, I was super hopeful. Yet, days like this fill me with doubt. Over and over…

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Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Today is Canada day. I haven’t actually done much though. Went to the grocery store, Starbucks & bought a fan. Oh, I also checked out the market when my hubby got home from work. There were not many options yet, as far as produce, but we did get some fresh carrots (you know, the kind that remind you of what a real carrot is supposed to taste like!)  They had cherries and some other berries. Plenty of “home business” type stands. That was all I had in me today. Pain is just bad and still is. So my hubby walked to four seasons park with the kids to watch the fireworks 🎇🎆. I felt guilty not going, my daughter said, “but we always go as a family mom!!” But I just felt done. And still do. So, I’m off to bed! 💫Happy Canada Day💫

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Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

This will likely be a fairly short post tonight. Our wifi, Shaw box thingy & our phones are down for some reason. My hubby phoned Shaw & they are supposed to be fixing it soon (whatever that entails…lol!) So I’m currently using my data to write something quick; after-all I can’t go a day without posting right?! Well, sorry to say, but this is it for tonight. It’s a rough night, pain-wise, and I don’t want to use too much data…

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My daughter’s 👸🏼plane ✈️arrives in about an hour⏳. 🌙Tonight🌜🌛yay🌙Her week away 📅is coming to an end👏🏼 (I’ve been missing 😕her and am clapping because she’s coming home🏡!). Tomorrow we will get to hear💬 all of her stories📖. She will show us her photos 📷and momentos🎒🎁. We will hear👂🏼 all of the new memories 💭she and her friends 👭👭have made. I’m quite relieved ☺️that we had a busy week while she was away🚌(if this trip is anything like our oldest daughter’s, there were plenty of bus rides and sleeping in museums…that’s another story!)  All of the “to do’s” 📝we had to get done for my oldest daughter’s grad 🎓kept me busy⌚️, which meant that there was not a whole lot of idle time☕️, (trust me, coffee applies here!!). So, I wasn’t stuck sitting around coming up with all of the possible worst case scenarios 😷- lol! (Believe me, I am pretty creative ✏️and can dredge up some pretty bad scenarios 😈) I stayed home🏠 with our little man👦🏼, while my hubby👱🏻 and oldest 👩🏼went to pick her up. I can’t wait⏰ to see 😍her and I’m looking forward to her hugs & kisses ❌😘❌and her over-excited 🎉descriptions about her trip‼️ 

  
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 I’m feeling teary right now, after it’s all done,

The pictures of you bring a lump to my throat.

My chest feels tight and it’s hard to breathe,

But my words to you have yet to be wrote.

How can I find the best way to let you know?

What do I say to make you see and understand,

How so very proud I am of all you do?

And how you no longer need me to hold your hand.

You’re beautiful and smart, filled with wit and sass!

You make me smile and “like me best when I’m tired!”

You’re not afraid to be yourself, to speak your own truth,

Your fearlessness is something I’ve always admired!

We laugh together and cry together,

You’re both my baby and best friend!

Wherever you are and whatever you do,

I will be here for you until the end!

Graduating does not only signify the end,

It presents the gift of a new beginning!

Your graduation marks a great achievement,

So move forward proud and grinning!!

Oh my dear dear daughter I love you so,

So much more than you can ever conceive of!

I cherish every moment I’ve had with you,

Good or bad, you’ll forever be my love💘!

JKC

(If the first photo looks weird because of the hand on her shoulder, it is because I cropped her boyfriend out of the photo, as I don’t have permission to post his photo on here!)

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I’m super-duper tired today! We all are actually. Had a very quiet, nothing kind of day. We certainly needed it. Yesterday was a long day. It felt like one of those kind of events that you take a long time to prepare for and then it feels like you blink and it’s over. That’s what today feels like. The day after and it feels like we did so so much leading up to my daughter’s grad and now it is just done. Weird. I’m just super tired. I’ve had my iPad open all day on the WordPress ap to write something, but I have no energy. I kept glancing at this all day, but hardly wrote anything, as you can clearly see. So now I’m going to head off to bed. Super sorry, but this is all I have for today. I’m on the verge of sleep so I’m going to actually post this and sleep. 

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Would you look at the time…2:22AM‼️ So so so crazy! My baby had her graduation🎓 reception this evening. So, we (as in myself, my daughter, her best friend & for the makeup part, my son) had a full day getting ready for it🛀🏼.Well, she got the hair done pretty early and fortunately out neighbour is a hair dresser💇🏼. So, she took my daughter to the salon and did an amazing job, her hair was super beautiful! Her best friend had her hair styled after and the result was stunning!!

The girls walked home from the salon, it was about 1:00PM. Once their hair was finished and we had a short lull, during which we had to do some very difficult math…figure out when to leave…This may not sound all that difficult, but apparently once you officially graduate, you simultaneously lose all of your math abilities. However, we need not panic, as almost all of the graduates have smart phones to assist them! Once we finally figured out when we should be leaving, we had to actually get going…⌛️lol. So, we got into the van to head off to Southgate Mall to go to MAC to get their makeup done. The girls got transformed and looked amazing! Not that they aren’t always beautiful, this makeover was for a formal event, so they had much more than day to day makeup. So, all I can say here is ♨️♨️WOW♨️♨️ ‼️ (they were smoking hot!! As one of my best friends loves to say!!) the makeup took much longer than we thought it would. Watching the clock⏰, I just knew that we were running out of time😱💆🏼. Their was a girl who had no appointments, so she did my eye makeup for me. I knew that if I didn’t get something done there, I just wouldn’t have makeup on…🙋🏼pick me…please! My daughter and her friend were the VIP’s, so my makeup wasn’t a priority, just a, hey you’re available, could you please just put a bit of makeup on my eyes??? So, this all took far longer than expected. We were still in the city and had to drive home, 🚘 through rush hour of course! We were leaving Southgate at about 4:30, which is actually when I told my friend we’d be dropping my son off at her house!! And, we had to drive to Beaumont, in order to get their dresses on. Then, we had to go back into the city all of the way to Northlands, for the reception. Yes, we did not arrive at 5:30, which was when they were opening the doors. Nope, we got their at 6:30, just in time for the grads to walk around the room in the graduates processional. She was so so beautiful! Her boyfriend showed up, which is so so good (even though she was still angry with him for not talking to her for A WEEK!!!  So, there is so much more that I could write about today. I’ll try to continue the conversation tomorrow. I can hard, and keep my eyes open and I’m seeing two different iPad screens at the same time. I so so need to rest now…

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Well, she did it! My baby girl walked across the stage 🎓…wow! Hard to believe, but it’s true. She graduated 🎓…😥. I don’t know if I’m sad or happy. I guess it’s both. So so crazy… I love her so so much & I’m so proud of her. It was a great ceremony, it actually didn’t take too long. They got in all of the requisite speeches, introductions, etc. A bit repetitive, but I understand that they’re necessary. Overall, it was a good ceremony, especially considering there were almost 200 graduates and it easily could’ve dragged on! The main point is that my baby graduated!!🎓 One down two to go (lol)!!!!

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Today is the second day with my youngest daughter away. I didn’t really mean to rhyme, it just happens all the time. Things I start to say just end up that way.  My words just tumble out, if I whisper or I shout. So my little girl’s away and will be for a few more days. I know she’ll be just fine, filled with memories from this time. At home we’re making memories too, we have so many things to do. My oldest graduates on the the morrow, it fills my heart with joy and sorrow. I’m so very proud of her, she’s all grown up, that’s for sure! Not much sorrow, just a tad, I’m clinging on a little too bad. I love her so and I’m hanging on tight, though I’m sure everything will be alright. She’s beautiful, funny and really smart. A new stage in her life is about to start. I love my girls and my little man too. They give me purpose in all I do. I’m lucky and have so much I’m thankful for. My family just makes my heart soar!

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Bon voyage! And they’re off!! My little girl got onto a plane early this morning without us… I’m sure that she’s going to have an amazing time. They get to go on numerous tours and see so many things. She was super anxious about flying, as I mentioned last night. The landing of their plane was a bit rough and the pilot had to do a 2nd run at it! It’s one of those Murphy’s law things, that the flight she was on was a bit rough. But, they survived and everything is good. She texted to say goodnight, so that means she also got through the haunted walk that she was worrying about. It’s weird thinking about how far she is from home. I know that she’s safe and having fun, I just want to keep her safe, now and forever. I know that this trip will be an awesome experience for her. I also know that I can’t always be there, looking over her shoulder, making sure everything’s all right. I have to hope that we have given her the tools to make good choices, to be kind, to be honest, etc etc. The only way for her to become all of these things is by letting her get out in the world. Not just on a school trip, but in general. She needs to get her feet wet, make her own mistakes, have good times and hard times, and to figure out how to work through difficult situations without needing to be rescued. As far as I’m concerned, parenting is the most difficult job there is. I make my mistakes and I’m not even close to being perfect, no one is, but I’m hoping that we’ve done enough to get her through this trip without us. We can only guide her and do our best and hope that she can do the same. And that is all we can do. 

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Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!