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First It’s The Dollar Tree, Then It’s The World!!!

May 26, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

Today I spent almost 2 hours in “The Dollar Tree” store. I know that’s a bit crazy, but it’s true. I was just walking through each isle, looking at all of the “great deals” that would encourage me to buy things that I don’t need and wasn’t even looking for! You know what I mean? You’re walking through the store and something catches your eye. You check it out and you’re flabbergasted by the price. You’re like”OMG! I just can’t believe how cheap that is!! What a great deal. I’ll never find it at that cost again! I can’t pass by this deal! Actually, I better buy a couple while I can!!” Then, as you leave the store where everything costs only $1.25 (yes, everything – a great deal, right?!) you find yourself wondering how you could possibly end up spending $40!! Well, at least I was out of the house right?! That’s got to be worth something! I was forced to crawl out of my cave because my husband forgot his work ID Pass at home. He needs it to enter the restricted areas. He can get a temporary pass for the day, but it doesn’t look very good when one of the bosses doesn’t have his pass. Also, he has a very high clearance level that may not be covered with a temporary pass. So, my point is that he called me from work to ask me if I’d mind bring it to him and that’s what forced me to get moving today. It’s pretty sad when you feel like you had a productive day because you spent a chunk of your afternoon in a dollar store…baby steps right?? First it’s The Dollar Tree, then it’s the world!!!!

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Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

A Fresh Start

May 25, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

A day with a little bit more sun

A day where a few more smiles are won

A lot less tears

Not quite as many fears

No longer asking why

Or wondering if you’ll say goodbye

Instead of everything falling apart

An end has turned into a fresh start…

JKC

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Dance + Stress = Fun???

May 24, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

Dance dance dance! 👯 Today was not much better than yesterday. It was my youngest daughter’s year end dance show today. She had to be picked up at 6:30AM, hair & makeup ready to go. Our night was extremely late because of last nights fiasco…with the late start of the party our oldest had to go to and the stressful situation regarding her boyfriend’s grad reception, well, I couldn’t fall asleep. Even though I knew that my alarm was going to be going off soon. So I finally fell asleep at 4:00AM, then I had to get my daughter ready for dance, 2 hours later, at 6:00AM!! Went back to sleep after our friends picked her up for us (they have to be at the Jubilee super early, because the dress rehearsal is in the morning and the show is in the afternoon). I was able to sleep for a few more hours, then showered and went to the show, with my super sad oldest daughter 🙇🏼, my little man 👦🏼, my hubby 👱🏻and my parents 👵🏼&👴🏼! When we were standing in the lobby, before the show even started, my little man asked his big sister (my oldest) to pick him up, because his tummy didn’t feel well. She picked him up and seconds later, he threw-up all over the place (in the carpeted area of the Jubilee). So, long story short, we brought him into the show. He felt sick again after only a few of the dance numbers, so my daughter and I pushed our way out of our row and into the isle (interrupting everyone). We ran him to the bathroom, then I got a plastic cup from the concession people, in case he still felt sick. He proceeded to throw-up into the cup during a few dance numbers. Finally, my hubby just took him back to the lobby. Then, during intermission, we decided he should take our sick little man home. This is just an amazing adventure of a weekend for us…yep! 💆🏼

Oh, before I hit the hay, (what a strange expression) my lovely youngest daughter danced👯 beautifully in all five of her dances! Bravo my little-one❌😘❌‼️

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

🐻RARW🐻

Today was an awful day. Awful awful awful… It started good. It was happy in our house. I was getting ready for my laser appointment, my girls were talking about the best way to make curls last and hold. My oldest daughter was hopping into the shower as I was running out the door to make my appointment. She was getting ready to go to her boyfriend’s grad this evening. He is at a different school then her. They decided pretty last minute about her attending, they weren’t dating when the tickets went on sale. We spent the past few days finding her a dress (she wanted to save her dress for her grad). She picked nail polish, how to do her hair, etc. She was supposed to be picked up by his mom (who lives in town) and they were supposed to be meeting him & his dad (& step mother, brother). My youngest daughter is amazingly talented when it comes to hair styling. She did a practice hair style the day before. So, while I was at my appointment, they did her makeup and then her hair (which was incredible!!), but it took a very long time. When I got home they were just finishing her hair. She was beautiful, excited and glowing! She got her bag ready, for going to the after party, “normal” clothes, etc. Then she got her dress on. The neighbours all wanted to see her “final look”, so she showed everyone. Then I took a bunch of photos of her. Then we came back home to make sure she had all she needed, because his mom was supposed to be coming right away. We were talking and waiting for his mom when my daughter’s boyfriend texted her saying that his mom didn’t have a spare ticket for her anymore!!!! Yes, that’s right, you heard me, there was no longer a ticket for her!!!!!!😱😱😱 Apparently his mom told him that she decided to use the ticket for his stepdad. Just like that!!! Can you even believe it! My baby at the door, dressed to the nines, waiting to be picked up for grad – and through a f-ing text his mom decides, at the last possible second, that his stepdad should come to the grad, not his girlfriend. But it’s okay because “she’ll do whatever it takes to make sure she (my daughter) gets to the after party!!” Because, yes, that is what you spend 5 hours getting dressed up for, a bloody party!!! This afternoon, around 12:00, he said that his mom told him that she’ll pick her (my daughter) up at about 5:00, then at about 5:15, his mom decides “nope!!!” REALLY????? Wtf??? So, for anyone who’s watched those teen movies where the girl is waiting for the prom date and he never shows…well, I just watched my daughter endure that and it was AWFUL! My heart was aching for her and my blood was boiling! I was so so angry at this woman. I mean who the hell does that?? I did wonder if he was making that up, because he got cold feet or something, but apparently no. That is just the way she is! This is to be expected… Normal behaviour for his mom! One of the reasons he chose to move in with his dad…I’m still a bit speechless about the whole thing! I know it may not seem like it, but wow! Wow! I know he was embarrassed and shamed and felt super bad. He apologized a lot, but, that doesn’t take the sting away, or make it better… I just can’t imagine doing that to a young girl! (Not to mention, your own son…). There’s more to say, but I’m going to stop before I let the mad take over…the 🐻Momma Bear🐻is rearing up🐻RARW🐻

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Sunny Days

May 22, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

A crazy, lazy day. I’m feeling like I did and accomplished nothing today. For some reason I’ve had a tough week. I feel like a lump. Well, a lump with a very long “to do” list that rarely gets done. I have all of these intentions, especially at night when I finally lie down and find some quiet time. I think of all of the things I should be doing, daily, to gradually work towards the land of the living. I know I’ve been depressed and the winter months never help that. Now that it is nice outside it lifts my mood a bit. To go out in the sunshine. Get some fresh air and some vitamin D. It makes things seem more possible. Reminds me that there is life outside of my house. I’ve turned into such a hermit over the past couple of years. Doing less and less. So, today was one of those “feel like a lump” days. But, with spring and sun, come joy and health. I can sense it…

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

These Precious Emotions

May 21, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

A downward spiral drags down my soul

Leaving me burdened with beautiful pain

Drowning my fears of fire and coal

Weighed down with sorrow I can’t explain

My heart seeks redemption it can’t know

Drenching me in guilt and shame

My smile falters almost allowing it to show

But these precious emotions are quick to tame

JKC

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Today It Enforced Its Reign

May 19, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

My damn face is bad, so bad today, I’m not sure what to do

It burns and burns and lights my face afire with flames of blue

It shoots and streaks across my cheek with fireworks of pain

Taking control of everything, today it enforced its reign…

JKC

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Yawn

May 18, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

Well, we’re home. Although, looking back, it’s probably not a good idea to write on here that we were out of town for the long weekend. Not that I have this big readership of people. Also, even if I did, I’m pretty sure that my actual address isn’t available on here. But, regardless, it’s probably not a good idea to write about being out of town.

And now, speaking of being out of town, I apologize for the pathetic posts I made over the weekend. I had an awful wifi over the weekend. We tried to use my husband’s phone as a wifi “hot spot”. This didn’t work, it kept going on & off. I was trying to write on the iPad using his phone’s wifi, but the connection wasn’t strong enough. Every time I tried to save anything it would disconnect. Then I tried to use my phone and the same thing continued to happen. So, my posts were all pretty disjointed…

Yawn! Now that we’re home, I’m pretty tired. We always have a good time at he cabin, but I come home tired. My brain is making a valiant attempt at pushing past my skull and oozing out through my ears, eyes and nose. Too much pressure! And, my face won’t let up. Arg… I can’t focus well. Too much ouch right now! I need to get ready for bed and have a long sleep tonight. It feels like it should be midnight right now. I actually slept fairly well at the cabin, probably because I added one of those gel-infused memory-foam mattress topper things to our bed. I really enjoy our time at the lake, but generally I don’t get a great sleep when we’re there. I always sleep best at home, in my own bed, but I definitely had a better sleep with the mattress topper.

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Strange, Where The Mind Goes…

May 15, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

I had a full day today. Went to Costco with my mom (I know that doesn’t sound like much, but it took a long time…there’re always so many things to check out – often distractions that you don’t really need to buy or, for that matter, even bother looking at – but, I take the time to look anyway! Also, I always end up buying more than I go for! Everything always seems like “Oh, it’s such a good deal!!” And then you buy something you didn’t really need or want in the first place – lol). By the time we left Costco and went to my parent’s to drop off my mom & pick up my little man (he got to hang out with Grandad, instead of being stuck at boring Costco) it was close to 5:00. We drove home, just in time to be engulfed by rush-hour traffic! (Well planned, right!?) By the time we got home, my hubby got home only about 30 minutes or so after us. Before we went out, to see the new Avengers movie, my wonderful family gave me a homemade coupon book full of things that they’ll do for me whenever I “use” or “hand-in”a coupon. Including a drawing course from my hubby!! (Yay me!!) I’ve dabbled a bit with water colour painting among other mediums. I really enjoy it. I grew up always always wishing I could draw (my sister is such a good drawer and I envied it so so much!!). I’ve felt like one of those people who could basically draw stick-people and not much more. (Sometimes even my stick-people were hard to decipher!!) I was always interested, but felt like I couldn’t do anything artistic! Like I had a big fat zero when it came to artistic talent! But, it was something that was always in the back of my mind, something I wanted to do, but didn’t follow through with. When I did the water colour courses and the creative journaling class I always felt good, or right somehow…not sure if that makes sense. I just feel this tug from my chest that pulls me towards writing and painting and drawing, well, just to “create”. It feels like home. The problem is my unstoppable tendency toward self-criticism!! In those art classes and when I muddle around at home, I still find myself struggling. Drawing is not easy for me and I have to work at things for a very long time. I realized that I am missing some of the basics. In school, once you get to a certain age, art class becomes optional and only the “talented, artsy, kids” continue with art class. This is sad because the “how to” of drawing is taught to the kids who continue. They learn the “tricks” or rather the skills needed. They learn how to draw! The rest of us just shake it off, with a little shrug or self-conscious giggle, when asked if they can draw. But, the more I read, the more I see that drawing is a skill. Yes, some people are naturally artistic and talented, but that doesn’t mean the rest of us just “can’t draw”. No, it means we were never taught to draw! So, my point is, that I love the idea of drawing and I lose myself, not just while writing, but when I paint or do anything “artsy”. I’ve wanted to take a “how to draw” class for a long time. I’m hoping that I can find a class that will work out, time-wise, for me!! And, it’s super late and I don’t know how I went from a quick account of my day to a talk about art…strange where the mind goes!

Oh, before I post this, I want to thank everyone for the warm birthday wishes! Much much appreciated. I’m blessed to have such good family & friends😍

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

I Hate The Word Hate…

May 13, 2015Uncategorized# atypical facial pain, # kids, # laser therapy, #acute pain, #Beaumont AB, #chronic fatigue, #chronic pain, #clinical depression, #dependency, #edmonton, #facial pain, #lasertherapy, #mairrage, #medication, #meditation for pain relief, #meditech, #MVD surgery, #neuroplasticity, #pain, #pain relief, #pain sensitization, #parenting, #poetry, #Striking Back, #TN, #TN research, #trigeminal neuralgia, #www.tnnme.com, #www.zazzle.com, #yoga for pain reliefJenn

Another day with a migraine! It hasn’t stopped all bloody week! Ug!!! I’m so so f…ing wanting it to get the hell gone!! Sorry for the language. I’m just feeling at my wits-end. My face is worse today than it’s been in quite some time. I’m not sure why. I wish I knew why. I wish there was a way to know…when it would strike, how bad it would be, how long it’s going to stay…Well, I do know some triggers; the number of hours of sleep I get, how much stress I am dealing with, a cold wind or often my car’s air conditioning, a peck on the cheek, a touch, probably how bad other things are, like my migraines. The thing is that most often, it’s completely unpredictable. Sometimes none of these things lead to pain. So, it is hard to know, day to day, where I’ll be at. So, today, it’s bad. Really bad. And, if I haven’t mentioned this yet, I HATE IT!!! It’s funny, I hardly ever used to use that word, “hate”. I have had talks with my kids about that word. I talked to them about how harsh, absolute and cold it is. When I hear it, especially when it’s about another person. I can feel myself physically cringe. Yet here I am using it over and over again! Yes, it’s not directed at someone, but it is still the same word and carries the same meaning with it. All of the same connotations. Allowing it into my day to day vocabulary brings that negatively with it. I need to find a way to dig myself up and out of the pile of negativity that I’ve been drowning in. The negativity is easy to see, especially if you have read a few of my posts. The problem is that I’ve allowed it to seep into everything! I feel like I’m infused with negative energy. As if I’m just marinated in negativity! I see it everywhere now. I get upset easier, I get frustrated, overwhelmed, angry, defensive… I am also getting less and less adept at hiding everything. I’ve always been very good at the whole “I’m okay”, “I’m fine”, with the smile on my face, type of person. But now, it’s getting harder and harder to hold it all together. The other thing is that I have stopped caring about things, stopped putting effort into things. I find myself dragging myself from point A to point B. I currently have no motivation. On days like today, I’m just done. Period. Hope my birthday brings a better day with it…I guess I’ll see tomorrow.

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

The Spirit Scribe

I challenge myself to write 365 posts in 2016to heal Body, Mind & Spirit. Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!

Tag Archives: #medication

First It’s The Dollar Tree, Then It’s The World!!!

A Fresh Start

Dance + Stress = Fun???

🐻RARW🐻

Sunny Days

These Precious Emotions

Today It Enforced Its Reign

Yawn

Strange, Where The Mind Goes…

I Hate The Word Hate…