I’m feeling a bit anxious today. I have tried so many different medications it’s getting a bit ridiculous. The pharmaceutical staff at the Rexall, where I get all of my prescriptions, recognize my voice (I think they all do now and there are quite a few of them!!) My pain doc’s receptionist also recognizes my voice. I can’t even remember half of the meds I’ve been on. I generally can recall the name, if I’m asked something like, “have you taken (fill in the blank here) in the past?” However, if I’m asked to recall a past medication off the top of my head or what medications I’ve been on, I will likely miss quite a few. I have a small notebook that I got intending to track what I have been on in the past, as well as what I’m currently taking and whether or not it helps, as well as any adverse side-effects.  The problem is that I always forget to use it. It’s just one more thing I should be doing that’s added to my mile long to-do list. I guess that if I really needed to know, because of a new doc or specialist or something, my pharmacy would print it off for me. I am good at listing the current meds that I’m taking, which is important, especially if there was some kind of emergency and I have a list in my “notes” on my phone. The new iPhone has a comes with an app appropriately called “Health”. I haven’t yet filled the forms out. I know that I should though. It is such a smart addition to the apple apps that are automatically on the new phones (they’re in the App Store if you don’t have on of the new phones.) I need to take the time to fill in my medical information, in case there was ever a reason that I couldn’t tell emergency medical people myself. I think that it’s a very smart addition to the phone. I just have to do it. 

I’m super tired right now. The reason I’m feeling nervous is that my medicinal marijuana arrived today. I haven’t tried it yet. It makes me nervous. I think it’s because of the ingrained beliefs that I was taught as a kiddo about marijuana. Interesting how those beliefs stop co with us. I have a great deal of new knowledge regarding medicinal marijuana. I’ve been reading a lot and I know it is better for me than many of my past and current meds. And I really believe that. However, I just feel a bit nervous about it. Yet, i am so so done with pain!! I’m at a point where I’d probably try anything!!! Also, I need something that I can use long term and Oxy-codone (to name only one of my many medication) is hard on your body. So, here goes nothing. I have to try the one my doc said to use at for sleep.  Until tomorrow…wish me & my vaporizer luck!!

To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) to sign a petition to have the World Health Organization (WHO) add Trigeminal Neuralgia (TN) to their “Health topic list.”

Hopefully once day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!