My husband’s mom passed away last week. It was a bit eerie, because my phone rang around 5:00 or 6:00AM.  When I answered the phone there was one of those awkward type calls that says something about my receiving a text to land line. “Goodbye.” That was it. Very precise and final, in that creepy automated voice. I sat there staring at my phone, somewhat creeped out, but pretty certain of the meaning behind the text. My brain was a bit off, still half asleep. I got back into bed and it felt so strange. Just a weird feeling I couldn’t or can’t quite get me head around it. It felt kind of off, like I wasn’t alone. Like I was being watched, but a bit more like watched over. However, it didn’t necessarily feel great either. It was cold, or I was cold, chilled actually. I sort of went back to a weird dream-like state, but not dead asleep, almost like watching myself as I had reels of times with Varia (both good and bad). For the most part, good memories, as my hubby would just pile us into the car and leave if there were anything inappropriate going on. He’d normally go in first to make sure things were okay and then come out to get us; which is why the reels of her are actually pretty positive. Not so much for my hubby. The reels moving through his brain are certainly negative, to say the least. I think he’s somewhat in denial and playing it cool. As well, he keeps pointing out everything she did that was less than maternal. I’m pretty sure that many emotions are careening inside his head, however,  sadness is a difficult emotion for many men. I think he believes that the worse things he can recall and use, the less reason he has to be sad. Anger is an easier emotion for men. (And, yes, I know I’m totally using broad stereotypes, but, in this instance, the stereotypes fit my hubby perfectly.) So, I guess that we get to drive to Penticton, yet again, with good reason!!

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Hopefully once day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!