It has been two days since my drawing class and I haven’t picked up my pencil yet. I have this strong pull to draw and keep saying, both out loud and internally, I need to do my “homework”, or I need to practice what we worked on Monday night, or the only way to master something difficult is to just do it!! I’m saying and thinking about this over and over again. Practice does make perfect! Even if this phrase brings up bad childhood memories about homework, among other things, it is true! Sorry guys, but the cat’s out of the bag! Our parents were right all along, practice really does make perfect (or at least better, practice makes you better…) The teacher gave us a few things to finish by next week and, as I said above, I haven’t done any of it yet! (Aren’t I the good role model – lol!!) I need to prioritize drawing on a daily basis. I’m doing this class for myself, something I’ve wanted to do for a long long time. So, it makes no sense that I haven’t been able to fit it into my week yet! Part of the problem (at l see it in my head) is Guilt. I feel shitty so often and end up needing to lie down or sit and do nothing. And now, I want to take up some of that precious time for myself! Realistically and from a mental health perspective, self-care is super important and, intellectually, I know that. But, obviously I am not that great at practicing what I preach! So, when my daughter and I get home (from dance) I’m going to practice for at least 30 minutes before bed. Oh, and here she is, so, we are off! Short one tonight, but better than nothing!
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Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!
The Spirit Scribe 