Hate hate hate how I’ve been feeling. Yuck! Sure tired of it. Have a hair appointment tomorrow and some laundry to do. I have to decide what I want to bring next week. Always feel bad, but still worse with this damn bug. I don’t mean to be so whiny. I just want a normal week, or day or I don’t know…I just feel so exhausted. It saps my spirit. It feels like just another thing piled on when I have too much to get done. Also, being spring break, I feel like I should be functioning more. Yet, I’m not. I know my girls need me and I just feel like I’m not there for them. And, sadly, they function well without me. I can turn that around and say that they’re raised well. That I taught them to take care of themselves. But, truly, it just makes me feel bad. I know I need to stop feeling bad about everything. My husband tells me I need to stop feeling bad and saying sorry. That isn’t really new advice given to me. I’ve been hearing that since I was a teenager. And, obviously, it’s advice that I haven’t used to change my behaviour. So, really, I know that I am the own cause of a lot of my own internal anxiety and guilt. I am now and always have been, my own worst critic. I know that I’m not alone. Women, especially, are very hard on themselves. And, right now, I am super tired and my head and face hurt. I should have gone to bed a long time ago. I don’t actually know how it got so late. This is short and short today (not especially sweet, or anything really). I just have no inspiration or anything today. I’m just filled with pain. I’m going to rub gum numbing stuff all over my teeth and then try to brush them super fast, before it wears off. Because my mouth is just bad today…the only person to ever “die” from Trigeminal Neuralgia (other than suicides) was a man who died of starvation. The pain was just too bad and eating caused too much pain. Yes, most people with Trigeminal Neuralgia lose weight, because it hurts too much to eat. Of course, not me. Nope. I get to gain weight because I do nothing, at all, ever. So, yah. The positivity tonight is just rolling off of me. I’m just going to try to sleep now. 

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