Still feeling awful today, actually worse. I hate being sick, well I mean with a flu bug.  Not that I don’t hate my “normal sickness”…okay, this is not making any sense or coming out clearly at all!  Sheesh! I’m trying to say that I hat having a flu bug, when your all congested and have that sinus pain, sore throat etc.. I also hate my daily struggle with pain. Was that any clearer?? I’m not too sure.

So my mom and I leave for Toronto in a week (almost exactly to the hour actually!) We are going to a clinic there to see a doctor who uses laser therapy. I don’t know much about it yet. I am reading about it right now. Reading frustrates me now. Which is really sad because I just love to read. I mean I really really love to. A perfect holiday for me would be sitting on a beach or by a pool, somewhere hot, with a stack of books beside me and absolutely no commitments or things that need to get done. Ahhhhh…paradise!! Anyway, back to reading being frustrating. All of the medications that I am taking have a huge effect on my memory. So, when I’m reading, I often have to scan back to “review” what I read the day before because I can’t remember it. Unless you too are a lover of books, you will have no idea how awful that is to me. I miss my brain. (Now I bet that’s a sentence you don’t hear everyday!!) It’s true though, I really miss my “normal” mind. My doctor doesn’t call my meds “stupid pills” just for kicks!  Nope. They’re “stupid pills” because they mess with every single nerve in my body – not just the Trigeminal nerve – all of the nerves in my body!!!  The theory is, slow down the nerve responses to slow down the awry firing of pain signals from my Trigeminal nerve. But science can’t yet pinpoint the exact nerve, so they all react to the meds.  Resulting in a slower, clumsier, dumber, lower-functioning human being, ie: me!!!

I find it so strange where my conversations go. I was intending to write about Toronto next week and laser therapy, but that didn’t really happen and now I’m going to stop for the night anyway. I just really need to sleep. As I sat here writing, my face suddenly started firing away horribly. So, I’m off to bed for now. Perhaps I’ll write about it tomorrow instead.

To help with research and treatment for Trigeminal Neuralgia please go to http://www.tnnme.com (Trigeminal Neuralgia and Me) to sign a petition to have the World Health Organization (WHO) add Trigeminal Neuralgia (TN) to their “Health Topic List”!