Holidays are over. Back to school. Back to “routines”. Back to “normal”. Um…no, not yet.  Also, while we’re on the subject, can someone please define “normal” for me (I’m pretty certain that if you “google” normal you will not find a photo of my family!!). Anyway, as I was saying, one day back doesn’t mean much at our house. It does not mean we’re suddenly all organized.  It does not mean everything just automatically falls into place. It does not mean bed time, or anything else for that matter, is on schedule. It certainly does not mean I remember when I’m supposed to pick my middle daughter up from her first dance class (& yes I did buy her an “I’m sorry you waited for me for almost 10 minutes in the freezing [come on it was only -30 degrees celsius] weather” hot chocolate after ballet class!!  Of course, I didn’t find out until after the fact that she made a choice not to wear a hat to school & then ballet today!!). Okay, yes, my son & I were late for play school today, but if you talked to his teacher, she’d be the first to tell you that we are almost always late – so that’s not exactly big news.  And, thank goodness there was a lot of left over spaghetti sauce, so that all I had to do was cook some pasta. (& by “I” I mean “my Husband”…)

As you can likely tell, I have not exactly been on top of things today…Clearly organization & I do not go hand in hand…and, I can try to blame it on back to school all I want, but, truly, it’s just the norm at our house. There always seems to be something that needs to get done, somewhere we need to go, etc & I’m pretty darn sure that our family isn’t much differs then most.  The fact is, kids keep you busy.  They just do.  Don’t get me wrong, I love my kiddos so much & I know that I am very blessed to have 3 healthy happy kiddos. The age range of our kids is pretty far apart, we have a 4 year old boy, a 12 year old girl & a 17 year old girl.  The little man was our “surprise”, but he was a wonderful, blessing of a surprise!  Without those beautiful girls of ours, on the days when my husband was at work & when I have my really really bad pain days, especially prior to my brain surgery,  (my really bad days which are obviously bad, they’re like I can hardly function or even get out of bed), I don’t know how I would have taken care of my little boy without my girls (&, sadly, my iPad).  Especially our oldest daughter, she has done so much to help me. I am afraid that I have given her more responsibility then she should have to deal with.  I’m hoping that this will make her stronger. I do carry a lot of guilt about it.  I can only hope that she has learned (or will learn) about nurturing, empathizing  & putting other’s needs before your own. (Okay, reading that last half of a paragraph over…as the night before, very kerfuddled thoughts again!!)

I’m having a rough (or I’ve had) day today (meaning sharp shooting nerve pain in my right cheek starting just in front of the ear & zooming along my jaw line along with other fun stabbing pains, feelings of extreme nausea & I really wish that someone would just take the damn ice-pick out of my ear instead of jabbing it further in!!!), which increases the stress (I’m sure it’s hard to see why that would be the case.) At least from my perspective.  It’s almost been 2 weeks that I’ve had flu-like symptoms caused by one of my medications. (Most of my prescriptions cannot just be stopped cold-turkey. Doing so could cause fun things like cardiac arrest &/or seizures…Does anyone know where that expression comes from?? Stop cold-turkey…seriously!! I’m curious about that!!)

Well huh…I am falling asleep again so I am off to bed.  I didn’t get to finish that conversation from last night…guess that will be tomorrow.

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!