I’m going to say what I seem to be saying all the time on here & all the time in general. And, that is this:

I am having such a bad pain day, a bad bad pain day & I hate it so much!! My brain feels like it is about to succeed in its’ relentless efforts to ooze out of whatever orifice is available. Urg

My face is on fire & the ever present ice-pick seems to be wired to its very own generator, which is being randomly turned on & off, up & down in strength, seemingly being operated by an over-energetic monkey who enjoys playing with switches!!! Eeee Eeee Eeee (imagine monkey sounds now!)

I really really need to start writing much earlier in the day.  I just cannot continue going to bed so late!  It is messing with my little mans and my sleep schedule.  I began writing this blog in order to find my way back to health; body, mind & spirit.  However, I know that not getting enough rest relates directly to how much pain I am in.  I needed to find myself again, somewhere in the mess that was left behind following my surgery.  I needed to find a way to start functioning again.  To use my brain for something other than dwelling on my pain & my loss of my career & the other negative thoughts that were continuously circling around my head.  So, my point in this little rant is, I am not helping myself find healing if I am not getting adequate rest!  There is just something about writing that fits with me.  It just clicks. Writing feels like what I was intended to do.  The problem is, I can get lost in it, which is wonderful, it makes me feel like I am living again, but I get so drawn into whatever I’m writing that I easily lose track of time.  I really need to start writing earlier in the day.  I don’t want to turn it into a chore, by leaving it until the last minute, & then make myself write when I should be falling asleep with a nice, cooling ice-pack on my face. I enjoy writing so much & I don’t want to tarnish that.

So…for once I am going to listen to my body &, instead of writing more about how I should be going to bed, I am actually going to go to bed!!

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Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!