Hi folks.  Late again.  Story of my life, which doesn’t have to be a bad thing – does it? Our world is so focussed on go go go, do do do & multi-tasking up the ying-yang (whatever the ying-yang is??) Wow!  Was that ever a muddled thought processes or what?! I have a difficult time keeping my train of thought on one thing. It all gets muddled & kurfuddled as I write it down. (Ya!! That’s a word!! As of now…or, I bet I could find it in a Dr Seuss book!!).  You have no idea how frustrating this is for me.  Well, unless you’ve known me for some time.  (Which, at this point, is highly likely the majority of the people who read this, if any!!)  It, my “brain farts” & my frustration, goes back to my medication post from a couple of days ago…

Just to recap, I am on a lot of meds! I mean I’m really really taking A LOT of medications!!  Now, just to be clear, in case you didn’t get the memo, I AM ON A LOT OF MEDICATIONS!!!! 

This is significant because…well, they bleeping bleep me up & bleeping make it so I can bleeping barely bleeping function & bleeping hardly bleeping think or bleeping do bleeping anything!!!  AND FOR BLEEPS  SAKE I AM SO SO SO BLEEPING SICK & BLEEPING TIRED OF IT!!!!!  I JUST WANT MY BLEEPING LIFE BACK!!

Sigh, deep belly breath in & belly breath out & repeat, belly breath in & out, repeat 10X.

I don’t think it’s newsworthy to say that most medications have side effects, some desirable  (usually the exact purpose for taking the meds) & some, well, not so good side effects.  Usually, if the medication brings about the desired response, you can deal with a few of the pain in the butt type of side effects.  For example: Jenn has a migraine headache, Jenn takes the migraine medication, Jenn’s migraine pain decreases & Jenn feels better, a little drowsy & loopyish, but the pain has improved…YAY for Jenn!!  Jenn can deal with feeling sleepy & having a bit of a dopey mind for a short amount of time, because the pain is better. Yay for Jenn!!  (Too bad I am not this mythical Jenn character, it would be super nice if my medication worked & I felt better just by taking one little pill.  I’d absolutely be saying YAY for Jenn!!  Too bad I do not live in this ridiculous, crazy, out-there, make-believe, fantasy world with this other mythical Jenn…)

Holy smokes!  I just saw the time!! Yikes!! I didn’t want to go to bed late tonight.  I really have to start to find time to do this during the day instead of once the house shuts down.  As you may have guessed, this whole discussion about side effects is leading somewhere, I just haven’t gotten there yet!  I will have to continue tomorrow.  I know that a big part of healing & taking care of yourself is getting enough sleep.  Which won’t be happening if I keep on going tonight.  The writing daily, regardless of how long or the topic or how serious or silly, is a good thing, but staying up this late to complete it, not so good.  It’s off to bed for me!!

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!