Last night I was complaining about medication, healing myself, etc…  So, for the record, I do want to point out that I have an exceptional doctor who has done all that she can think of to help me.  I started going to her about 20 years ago, so she knows me well. She knows my history.  She knows my family, including extended family.  She advocates for me.  She is kind & easy to talk to.  She speaks to me as an equal.  She means well & has been trying to help me to get better, or at least find a way to decrease my pain. In her defence, I am the only patient that she has ever had with Trigeminal Neuralgia. She readily admits this & lets me know that she is not sure how to proceed & is hoping that the pain specialist will be able to help.  She has also referred me to numerous specialists & any time that I have asked her about any alternative treatments, she has always told me that if they work & help me to feel better, to go ahead & try them. Her goal is the same as mine, to make me feel better.  I am very lucky to have her as my doctor!

I just wanted to be clear about her & the medical field in general. I am not a fanatic, who adamantly attacks & criticizes modern medicine.  I am not going to rant day after day about poor treatment, bad this & that. I may have some complaints or frustrations, but that is all.  Really, I am just not willing to accept that I have to, basically, “suck it up” and come to terms with the “fact that I am going to have pain for the rest of my life!”  I can not & will not accept that!!!  In my world that is called GIVING UP!! Not happening!!  I mean seriously, I’m only halfway through my life – half way!!  I will not be in pain for the rest of my life!! Nope, nada, not going to happen!

Well, it is now 2:10 Sunday afternoon & I fell asleep last night (I mean, I literally fell asleep, with my iPad open to this page on my lap! lol!!) without posting the above paragraph…it was intended to follow the brief & silly, “I’m late, I’m late” post! So, although it may seem like “Yay! I’m on time!” Technically, however, this really was last nights post. (Maybe I shouldn’t have added that, because today looks like it’s adding up to being a hectic one…

Hopefully one day I’ll get it right, or at least have fun, while about it I write!!